yoshibear
30-03-18, 16:56
I have been having on and off health anxiety for years, this last few months I think I have hit a peak. I travel a lot and recently took a trip to Africa. I was so worked up about taking my anti-malarial tablets that I was convinced I was going to have a terrible reaction and die or become really sick when taking them. Long story short, I didn't take them.
Now I have returned and am so paranoid I have malaria that I am making myself sick and dizzy with worry. I can't believe I have put myself in this situation and as it can take 6 months for malaria to show up I foresee the next few months of my life being an absolute paranoid nightmare. I know I have been stupid...I keep thinking surely I would know if I had malaria, I wouldn't have to second guess it. But every slight chill or twinge I am googling malaria symptoms like a maniac. I think its time to get CBT, that and pray dearly that I don't actually have malaria...
Now I have returned and am so paranoid I have malaria that I am making myself sick and dizzy with worry. I can't believe I have put myself in this situation and as it can take 6 months for malaria to show up I foresee the next few months of my life being an absolute paranoid nightmare. I know I have been stupid...I keep thinking surely I would know if I had malaria, I wouldn't have to second guess it. But every slight chill or twinge I am googling malaria symptoms like a maniac. I think its time to get CBT, that and pray dearly that I don't actually have malaria...