weekends

[Coni]

I know this probably isnt the right place for this, but I wanted to post it anyway.

For the last couple of months I have really struggled with my anxiety, particularly at weekends, when off work, probably because I have spare time on my hands. There have been times when I have felt close to breaking point because I have felt so scared and panicky, and at those times this forum and the people here and in the chat room have been an absolute life saver for me (thanks!!!). I feel as if I had almost got into a horrible cycle of weekend panic that I couldnt break.

Anyway, at the risk of speaking prematurely, this weekend is the first one in months where I have felt somewhere near normal, and I cant tell you how good it feels:yesyes: .

I dont know why this has happened now (and I'm sure I'll probably regret blowing my own trumpet and come back down with a bang), but I'm trying to live in the moment and enjoy it.

I dont know whether its due to the antidepressants starting to work, or the fact that my GP gave me some diazepam for occasional use (after I bawled my eyes out claiming I couldnt go on like this lol). I have to say I have only used the diazepam once, so maybe just knowing I have them makes me feel 'safe'?

I have also been practising my breathing (thanks Michelle) and doing my relaxation cd, as well as chatting to my pal groovygranny ((((GG)))). I have drastically reduced my caffeine intake (no more irn bru...sob...:weep: ) and have been trying to go to the gym a couple of times a week (which is good as since I have been like this I have lost over a stone as I am unable to eat much....end result good, but wouldnt recommend the method).

I know most of its probably down to meds and the help from you lot, so therefore not technically my success, but its so good to feel human again I just had to share.

And I'm (almost) looking forward to my New York trip in September (although watch this space....I could be posting in a panic about that any week now lol!:blush: ).

luv to you all and enjoy the rest of your weekend!

Coni XX

[groovygranny]

Coni !!

My lovely partner-in-catastrophe......how dare you say this isn't "technically your success".........

It is very much your success and there's not one person here who would agree with you on this point......they will all agree with meeee !!

- so I insist you enjoy your success, as we all enjoy hearing about it!!

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It's grey, dull and raining here - but the sun has just come out for me after reading this !!

LOTS AND LOTS OF LUV TO YOU

XXX XXX XXX

:hugs::hugs::hugs:

:flowers:

[honeybee3939]

Hi Coni

Thats definatley a success!! Be proud of yourself hun!:yesyes: :yesyes: :yesyes: :yesyes:

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Love
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Andrea
xxxxx

[Lindalou64]

Hello Conni,
Sounds like your doing a good job,you have to give yaself credit for what you have done,you have done the work, yes and keeping busy is a big help isnt it.....I hate having a few days off I feel as though Im slippin back....now if anyone seen me say this that didnt suffer would think Im nuts by saying I would hate having a few days off lol.oh well......I wish you much happiness........Linda xxx

[Piglet]

Brilliant thread! :yesyes: :hugs:

Love Piglet :flowers:

[Jaco45er]

((((((((((Coni)))))))))))))))))))))

Nice one lass :)

[pips]

Tis a Great Success Coni http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_30_118.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCxdm594YYGB)You!

I understand what you mean though. As I work in a college I'm lucky enough to get the summer of. I break up in a weeks time and part of me is really looking forward to it but part of me is getting anxious http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_6_200v.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCxdm594YYGB)as i will have more spare time on my hands which means more thinking http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_12_11.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCxdm594YYGB)Hmmmmm which isn't always a good thing!http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_15_11.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCxdm594YYGB) LOL

Hope your well.

Take Care hun.

Love Pip's :flowers: X X X X

[Coni]

Hi guys,

GG...I now consider myself 'told off'....you can be a bit scary sometimes you know lol:blush: !

Thank you Andrea, Linda and Jaco....I'm quite chuffed....gone almost a whole day and very little anxiety (touches wood quickly....oops no....thats hubbys head lol!).

Pips...I never thought I would see the day when I would be glad to go to work, but lately I would quite happily work 7 days a week....hope you enjoy your summer break....going anywhere nice?

take care all

luv Coni X

[nomorepanic]

Coni

Just caught up with this thread.

Wow such progress and well done you!!! :yesyes: :yesyes:

[Coni]

Thanks Nic, my aim now is to hold on to this and keep it going....I'm starting to think thats the hard part lol!

luv Coni X

[Southern_Belle]

Hi Coni,

I think you are doing fantastic and try not to think too hard about keeping it going just live your life and take it one day at a time. By the way, I went to NYC for the first time last January and had an absolute blast, you will love it!

Hugs,

Laura