Hmefh7
10-04-18, 20:57
Dear all,
Hello!
Some background:
Married my wonderful hubby August 2006. Discovered my father was unwell the day of the wedding he couldn't make a speech. Roll on 2007 dad was diagnosed with a rare dementia. Prescribed Prozac 60mg Then a year of caring for dad running his business working full time with upto 6 carers.
2009-march 2016 24 hour care. Work nursing home, bed, work etc.,
In the interim my mum is diagnosed with dementia and Parkinson's in 2012 so my hubby and I work and visit care home every evening...
2016 mum and dad die with 83 days I am with them both as they take their last breath
August 2016 I break my wrist badly requiring plating wires and screws. I am admitted to a ward next to a dementia sufferer that tied for her mum...
I then get grief counselling for 20 sessions and begin to feel a bit brighter.
2017 come off Prozac in preparation for ivf
Two rounds of ivf that fail
July 2017 double pneumonia that could have been fatal.
And I plodded on...
October 2917 onwards... I feel increasingly low with panic attacks...march I start feeling even worse with most mornings thinking about driving into lorries in my morning commute.
Two weeks ago I hit rock bottom... I could not stop crying completely low anxious panic attacks and anxiety almost constantly.
I ring the gp and get an appointment and am prescribed mertazapine 30mg. I niw sleep upto 14 hours... I am an idiot...
I have self referred for cbt.
I see the dr tomorrow and want to change Meds being such an idiot is not me but equally I cannot go back to the anxiety.
In hindsight the counselling was a plaster over the grief... my positivity and the stuffing has been knocked out of me. I just don't have an ounce left.
H
Hello!
Some background:
Married my wonderful hubby August 2006. Discovered my father was unwell the day of the wedding he couldn't make a speech. Roll on 2007 dad was diagnosed with a rare dementia. Prescribed Prozac 60mg Then a year of caring for dad running his business working full time with upto 6 carers.
2009-march 2016 24 hour care. Work nursing home, bed, work etc.,
In the interim my mum is diagnosed with dementia and Parkinson's in 2012 so my hubby and I work and visit care home every evening...
2016 mum and dad die with 83 days I am with them both as they take their last breath
August 2016 I break my wrist badly requiring plating wires and screws. I am admitted to a ward next to a dementia sufferer that tied for her mum...
I then get grief counselling for 20 sessions and begin to feel a bit brighter.
2017 come off Prozac in preparation for ivf
Two rounds of ivf that fail
July 2017 double pneumonia that could have been fatal.
And I plodded on...
October 2917 onwards... I feel increasingly low with panic attacks...march I start feeling even worse with most mornings thinking about driving into lorries in my morning commute.
Two weeks ago I hit rock bottom... I could not stop crying completely low anxious panic attacks and anxiety almost constantly.
I ring the gp and get an appointment and am prescribed mertazapine 30mg. I niw sleep upto 14 hours... I am an idiot...
I have self referred for cbt.
I see the dr tomorrow and want to change Meds being such an idiot is not me but equally I cannot go back to the anxiety.
In hindsight the counselling was a plaster over the grief... my positivity and the stuffing has been knocked out of me. I just don't have an ounce left.
H