liam_mcf
16-12-04, 18:58
Hey there, before i introduce myself i would just like to say a very big thanks to everyone who is involved in this site, not long found it and have spent the last couple of hours reading near enough all of it!
And it has helped me a little already...
Im a 22 year old electrician from Glasgow...and till now i never really worried about anything [Sigh...]
I've never been a person that has worried alot or ever got stressed out but the last couple of weeks i have really felt like pulling my hair out...feel as if im going mad!!!
im going to try and explain but im not sure where to start to be honest :)
About 3 years ago i was diagnosed with testicular cancer..though after an operation and some treatment i was fine and have been for the last 2 years and a half.
After the op i was off work for a while and became really unfit and to
make matters worse im now working in an office where as before i would be out on sites working away..keeping myself fit!
So i got a little depressed but nothing major, infact i wouldnt even call it being depressed :D
The last years or so ive just been working away getting on with life as usual..Until i done something really really stupid in August of this year.
I was at a party and took some amphetamines, ive never touched drugs in my life and from the experiance i had i never will again.
I know it was really stupid...but i was drunk and i did it anyway..i know thats no excuse!
What ever it was i took i must have took to much of or it never agreed with me, as later on that night i began to feel really faint and ill.
I felt my heart beating really really fast and felt i couldnt breathe, my whole body went numb and pins and needles...i was in complete terror and all i could think was i was taking a heart attack.
An ambulance got phoned and i got taking to hospital, i took me about 8 hours to calm down and i got kept in over night. I got let out the next day after i got some test to make sure my heart was ok as it was still beating fast.
i got home and it took me a couple of days before i felt better, and i felt my heart was back to normal.
i started to get on with my life till one night when i was laying in bed
and i suddenly took a panic attack, i really did panick as i kept on thinkin i was gonna take a heart attack and that i had damaged my heart because of taking the drug. But my mother tried to assure me it was a panick attack or maybe a flash back of some sort.
Since then and till now ive maybe had 3 big panick attacks..keep thinking the same things..and feeling real anxious all the time.
Then for about 2-3 weeks i felt absolute fine, my boss was on holiday for 3 weeks and i didnt do much work :D and just relaxed browsing the net all day!!!
But for the last few weeks (i would say the start of november) i have been feeling really anxious again...i feel as if im loosing my mind and i dunno what it is! i can feel my heart beating really fast sometimes and i feel im in a world of my own. I get this really wierd nervous feeling all the time which is really bothering me the most as ive never really had it before...keep thinking im going mad!!
When im with someone especially my gorlfriend i seem to be not to bad...but at work when im working away on the computer it feels the worst also when im on my own!!
Im struggling to get to sleep at night even though im so so tired!
I went to the doctor and explained everything, he took some tests and ill find out about them just after the new year.
He told me i should try and relax and give it time and hopefully ill feel better...
But there seems to be just no ending!!!
Im constantly thinking of what is causing it...im not stressed out about my work im not under great pressure or anything...myabe its just the bordom at staring at a pc all day? maybe its getting me worked up?
or could it be that i keep thinking of that overdose when i thought i was taking a heart attack? maybe its just everything over the past three years just building up?
Anyway thanks for reading if you have eventually got
And it has helped me a little already...
Im a 22 year old electrician from Glasgow...and till now i never really worried about anything [Sigh...]
I've never been a person that has worried alot or ever got stressed out but the last couple of weeks i have really felt like pulling my hair out...feel as if im going mad!!!
im going to try and explain but im not sure where to start to be honest :)
About 3 years ago i was diagnosed with testicular cancer..though after an operation and some treatment i was fine and have been for the last 2 years and a half.
After the op i was off work for a while and became really unfit and to
make matters worse im now working in an office where as before i would be out on sites working away..keeping myself fit!
So i got a little depressed but nothing major, infact i wouldnt even call it being depressed :D
The last years or so ive just been working away getting on with life as usual..Until i done something really really stupid in August of this year.
I was at a party and took some amphetamines, ive never touched drugs in my life and from the experiance i had i never will again.
I know it was really stupid...but i was drunk and i did it anyway..i know thats no excuse!
What ever it was i took i must have took to much of or it never agreed with me, as later on that night i began to feel really faint and ill.
I felt my heart beating really really fast and felt i couldnt breathe, my whole body went numb and pins and needles...i was in complete terror and all i could think was i was taking a heart attack.
An ambulance got phoned and i got taking to hospital, i took me about 8 hours to calm down and i got kept in over night. I got let out the next day after i got some test to make sure my heart was ok as it was still beating fast.
i got home and it took me a couple of days before i felt better, and i felt my heart was back to normal.
i started to get on with my life till one night when i was laying in bed
and i suddenly took a panic attack, i really did panick as i kept on thinkin i was gonna take a heart attack and that i had damaged my heart because of taking the drug. But my mother tried to assure me it was a panick attack or maybe a flash back of some sort.
Since then and till now ive maybe had 3 big panick attacks..keep thinking the same things..and feeling real anxious all the time.
Then for about 2-3 weeks i felt absolute fine, my boss was on holiday for 3 weeks and i didnt do much work :D and just relaxed browsing the net all day!!!
But for the last few weeks (i would say the start of november) i have been feeling really anxious again...i feel as if im loosing my mind and i dunno what it is! i can feel my heart beating really fast sometimes and i feel im in a world of my own. I get this really wierd nervous feeling all the time which is really bothering me the most as ive never really had it before...keep thinking im going mad!!
When im with someone especially my gorlfriend i seem to be not to bad...but at work when im working away on the computer it feels the worst also when im on my own!!
Im struggling to get to sleep at night even though im so so tired!
I went to the doctor and explained everything, he took some tests and ill find out about them just after the new year.
He told me i should try and relax and give it time and hopefully ill feel better...
But there seems to be just no ending!!!
Im constantly thinking of what is causing it...im not stressed out about my work im not under great pressure or anything...myabe its just the bordom at staring at a pc all day? maybe its getting me worked up?
or could it be that i keep thinking of that overdose when i thought i was taking a heart attack? maybe its just everything over the past three years just building up?
Anyway thanks for reading if you have eventually got