emnemz
23-04-18, 22:17
I'm trying so hard... so so so hard not to panic but I'm struggling today.
so around a month ago I coughed up a little blood, not much just a little and rushed myself to the doctors. we came to the conclusion she was very certain it was nothing sinister and I almost forgot about it (ish)... now for the last 6 weeks ago my voice has ranged from being very husky to slightly to almost fully being gone. now work has been mega busy and I work in sales so put it down to this. the past couple of weeks with no sign of getting better, as soon as it does the weekend is over and it's Monday again. no sore throat at all. then this morning, coughed and there was a little stream again, not much but a little bright red couldn't be mistaken for anything else. alarm bells started ringing and I'm now panicking but 'trying' and failing to be logical. I have had a chronic cough as long as I remember but I am asthmatic and I have to say half the time i feel that it's habit. so here we are, the logical part of my brain is thinking perhaps laryngitis, acid reflux, thyroid? where as the real panic which is taking over is going you have cancer of some sort and I cannot stop it screaming in my head and it's scaring the living daylights out of me!!!! I'm 30 yrs old with a lovely young family that I'm so scared that I'm going to loose 😭😭😭😭 I'm so scared of what's happening I mean these are real life physical symptoms. going to book back to doctors tomorrow whether I will get anywhere or not is another matter xx
so around a month ago I coughed up a little blood, not much just a little and rushed myself to the doctors. we came to the conclusion she was very certain it was nothing sinister and I almost forgot about it (ish)... now for the last 6 weeks ago my voice has ranged from being very husky to slightly to almost fully being gone. now work has been mega busy and I work in sales so put it down to this. the past couple of weeks with no sign of getting better, as soon as it does the weekend is over and it's Monday again. no sore throat at all. then this morning, coughed and there was a little stream again, not much but a little bright red couldn't be mistaken for anything else. alarm bells started ringing and I'm now panicking but 'trying' and failing to be logical. I have had a chronic cough as long as I remember but I am asthmatic and I have to say half the time i feel that it's habit. so here we are, the logical part of my brain is thinking perhaps laryngitis, acid reflux, thyroid? where as the real panic which is taking over is going you have cancer of some sort and I cannot stop it screaming in my head and it's scaring the living daylights out of me!!!! I'm 30 yrs old with a lovely young family that I'm so scared that I'm going to loose 😭😭😭😭 I'm so scared of what's happening I mean these are real life physical symptoms. going to book back to doctors tomorrow whether I will get anywhere or not is another matter xx