agingwuss
26-04-18, 09:42
At the moment I'm going through tests to see if some symptoms I have are sinister or, as a nurse I saw said, "something & nothing". [I won't say what it is, for fear of triggering other people's HA.]
I'm trying to keep my anxiety down to a minimum. I must thank this site and some of the 'sticky threads' above which have been an enormous help and I think I'm doing better than I'd feared.
But has anyone else come across what I can only call "fear of optimism". Quite often when I manage to push my fear to the back of my head, to lose myself in something more interesting or to get slightly confident that I will get good news about my health, something sort of 'pings' in the back of my head. It seems to be saying "if you think those happy & optimistic thoughts, you will definitely have a nasty shock when you get your results - and it will serve you right for not worrying! You won't be prepared & you won't be able to deal with it! "
Can anyone else relate to this daftness?
I'm trying to keep my anxiety down to a minimum. I must thank this site and some of the 'sticky threads' above which have been an enormous help and I think I'm doing better than I'd feared.
But has anyone else come across what I can only call "fear of optimism". Quite often when I manage to push my fear to the back of my head, to lose myself in something more interesting or to get slightly confident that I will get good news about my health, something sort of 'pings' in the back of my head. It seems to be saying "if you think those happy & optimistic thoughts, you will definitely have a nasty shock when you get your results - and it will serve you right for not worrying! You won't be prepared & you won't be able to deal with it! "
Can anyone else relate to this daftness?