mila
17-07-07, 20:41
Hi everybody,
I really feel terrible and I know this is the best place to find some comfort:)
I have been feeling better for quite a while, even though life has been more stressful then ever before i think, still I felt I have little fears burried but I was successfully avoiding for the time being situations that would make them crop up or sometimes i`d even deal with some of them if i felt it is something i had to do. I`ve been on cipralex for a long time, and a few months ago i thought i should really go off them now. So i slowly did.
Anyway, problems have been piling up lately. I started a part time job in a club couple of weeks ago(as well as doing full time day placement at my uni), it`s only 3 nights a week but i`d be coming home at 4 or 5 and i just find it extremely difficult, every morning after that i`d feel really down and achey, depressed, i started worrying over how i feel again, started feelingthings, like little aches in strange places, or lower back stiffness and ache and tenderness in lower tummy too,tender spots around my body when i press them, i just generally felt bad...But that is all just an introduction to what happened yesterday. at some point in the day I started feeling a strange feeling in my legs and arms, like numbness, really like that feeling before your leg is going to go to sleep, or like when u hear something really dreadful and u get that sort of like a freezing feeling all over your body...Needless to say I started freaking out. Both my feet and my hands were freezing cold. I felt things like numbness through the history of my anxiety, but never in all my limbs, mostly just legs. I should really mention that it sort of started after i heard something i expected to happen and really needed to happen was not going to happen yesterday yet again. That all happened at my placement and on the way home i ended up in a&e because i was really panicking by this time, i was scared my whole body is going to become numb or something...There waiting, but i didn`t wait too long after the assessment which worked me up even more, cause there was people there waiting for hours. The guy almost straight away told me it it panic, he took my bp and said u look anxious, go to your gp.My pressure was 160 over 90, and i guess i know in theory for being in a state of panic that is nothing out of the ordinary but it got me scared even more...I went home, felt exausted for a while, it eased off a bit and then it started again, arms, legs, feeling heavy but with aches all over as well this time, dull deep pain, just in spots, lower abdomen discomfort, and bunch of other things that i know are from panicking...So i survived that, draged myself to the gp today(not mine, he wasn`t in) for him just to prescribe me cipralex again, doctor from last night said he put on the records to check the bp again and do some blood tests, he just said he doesn`t need to do any of that, it`s just my anxiety. so i`m just sitting here now trying to decide what to do, get back on meds or what...I`m scared, still can feel the wierd aches in my legs and arms, and the feeling of numbness comes and goes, and feelong of heaviness, today at one point i felt like i can`t stand anymore...My mind`s already started wondering , i started feeling a lump in my throat and i already had thought like if i start feeling i can` breathe it`s pulmonary embolism...i know myslef somethings my brain comes up with are fantastic lol but still it sets the things off and this time i really have to prevent it from spiriling out of control...
Sorry guys for my tread being so very long , but i really needed to say everything and i really need some support...:weep:
Millie
I really feel terrible and I know this is the best place to find some comfort:)
I have been feeling better for quite a while, even though life has been more stressful then ever before i think, still I felt I have little fears burried but I was successfully avoiding for the time being situations that would make them crop up or sometimes i`d even deal with some of them if i felt it is something i had to do. I`ve been on cipralex for a long time, and a few months ago i thought i should really go off them now. So i slowly did.
Anyway, problems have been piling up lately. I started a part time job in a club couple of weeks ago(as well as doing full time day placement at my uni), it`s only 3 nights a week but i`d be coming home at 4 or 5 and i just find it extremely difficult, every morning after that i`d feel really down and achey, depressed, i started worrying over how i feel again, started feelingthings, like little aches in strange places, or lower back stiffness and ache and tenderness in lower tummy too,tender spots around my body when i press them, i just generally felt bad...But that is all just an introduction to what happened yesterday. at some point in the day I started feeling a strange feeling in my legs and arms, like numbness, really like that feeling before your leg is going to go to sleep, or like when u hear something really dreadful and u get that sort of like a freezing feeling all over your body...Needless to say I started freaking out. Both my feet and my hands were freezing cold. I felt things like numbness through the history of my anxiety, but never in all my limbs, mostly just legs. I should really mention that it sort of started after i heard something i expected to happen and really needed to happen was not going to happen yesterday yet again. That all happened at my placement and on the way home i ended up in a&e because i was really panicking by this time, i was scared my whole body is going to become numb or something...There waiting, but i didn`t wait too long after the assessment which worked me up even more, cause there was people there waiting for hours. The guy almost straight away told me it it panic, he took my bp and said u look anxious, go to your gp.My pressure was 160 over 90, and i guess i know in theory for being in a state of panic that is nothing out of the ordinary but it got me scared even more...I went home, felt exausted for a while, it eased off a bit and then it started again, arms, legs, feeling heavy but with aches all over as well this time, dull deep pain, just in spots, lower abdomen discomfort, and bunch of other things that i know are from panicking...So i survived that, draged myself to the gp today(not mine, he wasn`t in) for him just to prescribe me cipralex again, doctor from last night said he put on the records to check the bp again and do some blood tests, he just said he doesn`t need to do any of that, it`s just my anxiety. so i`m just sitting here now trying to decide what to do, get back on meds or what...I`m scared, still can feel the wierd aches in my legs and arms, and the feeling of numbness comes and goes, and feelong of heaviness, today at one point i felt like i can`t stand anymore...My mind`s already started wondering , i started feeling a lump in my throat and i already had thought like if i start feeling i can` breathe it`s pulmonary embolism...i know myslef somethings my brain comes up with are fantastic lol but still it sets the things off and this time i really have to prevent it from spiriling out of control...
Sorry guys for my tread being so very long , but i really needed to say everything and i really need some support...:weep:
Millie