Lilly13
30-04-18, 19:06
I have always been a largely "future focused" person... maybe a dreamer.. of my career, of my future lover, of trips that I would take....
When health anxiety creeps in I find it so hard to deal because I fear I won't have a future. Despite me knowing this thought is irrational until ..when/if I am diagnosed with something.. I can't seem to stop feeling so extremely defeated.
I am so nervous that I have been misdiagnosed twice and the doctors may have missed a nodular mole. I am a mess.. I recently overlooked an email and missed a really important meeting.. I spend most days crying thinking that I am not well enough to even leave the house. I also recently began spending hours putting on make up and doing my hair.. I don't know what this ritual is. Maybe I feel that if I look pretty I can hide.
Has anyone else felt this? How do I get better?
I went to my doctor at school ( it is more like a clinic) and the doctor isn't concerned so I have been told I cannot see the derm for months. Obviously this is driving me insane. They haven't even given me a date yet...
Please help if you can.. with any tips or ways to make me think rationally.
Warmly,
Lilly xx
When health anxiety creeps in I find it so hard to deal because I fear I won't have a future. Despite me knowing this thought is irrational until ..when/if I am diagnosed with something.. I can't seem to stop feeling so extremely defeated.
I am so nervous that I have been misdiagnosed twice and the doctors may have missed a nodular mole. I am a mess.. I recently overlooked an email and missed a really important meeting.. I spend most days crying thinking that I am not well enough to even leave the house. I also recently began spending hours putting on make up and doing my hair.. I don't know what this ritual is. Maybe I feel that if I look pretty I can hide.
Has anyone else felt this? How do I get better?
I went to my doctor at school ( it is more like a clinic) and the doctor isn't concerned so I have been told I cannot see the derm for months. Obviously this is driving me insane. They haven't even given me a date yet...
Please help if you can.. with any tips or ways to make me think rationally.
Warmly,
Lilly xx