anxiousjomo
01-05-18, 14:28
So,
I have been medication free for about 6-7 months (was on Prozac, then Citalopram for 5 years or so, with a previous 6 years or so prior to that on Prozac). Exercising regularly, meditating etc. Still had tough days from time to time, and still struggled with sleep and with morning anxiety/upset stomach etc. But was really doing a hell of a lot better.
Then this weekend was my wife's 40th birthday and we had a big party. I don't usually drink (as we all know it is a bad idea when you have anxiety and depression issues!) but ended up having a couple of strong drinks to get over the initial party-awkwardness and then completely lost track of what I was drinking. Next thing I know we are getting home at 4am Sunday morning and I am pretty much pass-out drunk.
Sunday day was horrific. And that night I was shaking, sweating etc etc. Yesterday a little better but now anxiety is through the roof and last night I think I slept a bit but I feel awful today. Really groggy, anxious, jittery etc.
Now my brain is falling back into those old patterns: "You are not going to sleep tonight because of the anxiety"; "you have broken all the good work you did on yourself and are back to square one"; "you are such a failure"; "you are too exhausted to do your job properly" etc etc
Anyone been in a similar situation? Any helpful suggestions? Any advice/reassurance that I have not completely lost all the progress I made?
---------- Post added at 14:28 ---------- Previous post was at 10:30 ----------
I have to just remember the mantras and the lessons of Dr Weeks.
So what if I don't sleep well tonight and am exhausted tomorrow? Am I going to die? No. Have I got through days feeling much worse? Yes. Is this jitteriness and grogginess and everything else really that awful? I am comparatively healthy in all other ways - no major illnesses, my limbs all work fine, I am not particularly overweight or anything else. So what if I have some sensations in my body that are not very pleasant. So what if I am tired - it can't be as bad as those first few months when my son was a baby!!
So just let it go.
I have been medication free for about 6-7 months (was on Prozac, then Citalopram for 5 years or so, with a previous 6 years or so prior to that on Prozac). Exercising regularly, meditating etc. Still had tough days from time to time, and still struggled with sleep and with morning anxiety/upset stomach etc. But was really doing a hell of a lot better.
Then this weekend was my wife's 40th birthday and we had a big party. I don't usually drink (as we all know it is a bad idea when you have anxiety and depression issues!) but ended up having a couple of strong drinks to get over the initial party-awkwardness and then completely lost track of what I was drinking. Next thing I know we are getting home at 4am Sunday morning and I am pretty much pass-out drunk.
Sunday day was horrific. And that night I was shaking, sweating etc etc. Yesterday a little better but now anxiety is through the roof and last night I think I slept a bit but I feel awful today. Really groggy, anxious, jittery etc.
Now my brain is falling back into those old patterns: "You are not going to sleep tonight because of the anxiety"; "you have broken all the good work you did on yourself and are back to square one"; "you are such a failure"; "you are too exhausted to do your job properly" etc etc
Anyone been in a similar situation? Any helpful suggestions? Any advice/reassurance that I have not completely lost all the progress I made?
---------- Post added at 14:28 ---------- Previous post was at 10:30 ----------
I have to just remember the mantras and the lessons of Dr Weeks.
So what if I don't sleep well tonight and am exhausted tomorrow? Am I going to die? No. Have I got through days feeling much worse? Yes. Is this jitteriness and grogginess and everything else really that awful? I am comparatively healthy in all other ways - no major illnesses, my limbs all work fine, I am not particularly overweight or anything else. So what if I have some sensations in my body that are not very pleasant. So what if I am tired - it can't be as bad as those first few months when my son was a baby!!
So just let it go.