Pkstracy
05-05-18, 01:22
I am so sick of being sick and tired, I found some bruises on the back of my left leg, not sure how they got there, or how long they have been there, I keep thinking OMG blood clot, I have this fear that something is wrong with me, I keep checking the bruises to see if they have spread, making sure I don't have some form of bleeding going on inside, Hubby thinks I did something but I am like I don't know how they could have gotten near the crease of the back of my leg, they are just above it, I have to turn my leg just to see them, they are on upper part, I keep googling blood clot symptoms and checking, doing the toe flex test where you stretch out your leg and flex your toes up, I don't feel pain, or redness or swelling, my skin is not hot, I am having none of the symptoms of this, but yet I keep thinking that yep I have one, I am, as I said, constantly checking, then my brain goes into , what if it's cancer, what if it's my liver, what if it's diabetes, what if what if what if, this has taken over so much in the last few days that it is hard for me to do anything else, I even took a pen and drew a circle around the bruises to see if they grow, have even taken pictures to compare, I know some people can bruise for no reason and it's part of aging, but I am only 45 , been healthy all my life,I am overweight, and have lost 50 plus pounds, and started eating healthier, cutting out sodium, and a lot of sweets and processed foods, and cooking at home with herbs and spices, not hardly eating red meat and cutting out sodas of every kind, my depression has also gotten worse, I can't handle this anymore and feel like I am going to lose my mind, I can't focus, I can't sit still, I just want to stay in bed most of the time or be near my husband, I feel tired and not sure why, I know anxiety and stress can make you tired as well as that time of the month, I just wish I knew how to stop this and be back to who I used to be, like I never used to worry about stuff like this, the old me would have seen it and been like, wow how did that happen, and go on, and then if it was still there after a couple of months then I would be like okay, time to get checked out, I have never had unexplained bruises before, and yeah Dr. Google didn't help, big mistake in googling.