Laneybc
05-05-18, 19:17
I have had another relapse. I had six pretty good years even though we lost three of our parents during that time. Then my dad died last summer and I relapsed. I got back on trazadone and things immediately improved and though I was still grieving I could also enjoy lifelong I cried most days but I laughed too. Things were okay. Last week we were told my husband has lung cancer and it pushed me off the edge. I am a mess, cant rest properly, can't eat, tummy troubles, frozen in one place. I am also taking trazadone, citalopram and buspirone. I have Ativan but hate to use it. I usually don't notice any benefit when it is this bad and I fear becoming dependant.
I have taken lots of CBT classes etc, had counselling, etc. I am just at a loss as to what else to try to help myself. I have booked myself in with a private counsellor because publicly funded has been a pain to get in with(in Canada).
I feel like I need to stop fighting the anxiety but my mind is going to so many dark places with this diagnosis. I am disabled and use a wheelchair most of the time. I rely heavily on my husband and so I fear for my future if he becomes ill or worse.
Kind of rambling here but I wanted to give a bit of background.
Thanks for reading. I am open to suggestions.
I have taken lots of CBT classes etc, had counselling, etc. I am just at a loss as to what else to try to help myself. I have booked myself in with a private counsellor because publicly funded has been a pain to get in with(in Canada).
I feel like I need to stop fighting the anxiety but my mind is going to so many dark places with this diagnosis. I am disabled and use a wheelchair most of the time. I rely heavily on my husband and so I fear for my future if he becomes ill or worse.
Kind of rambling here but I wanted to give a bit of background.
Thanks for reading. I am open to suggestions.