13 yrs of therapy

[ade]

I DID IT!
after 30 yrs of holding this all in,and being unable to get wildly angry at the abusers ,i finally did it.in a culmination of over 13yrs therapy withthe same woman,we found a way to do it.they closed off a corridor so i could scream
safely,and i was pumped full stimuli,then surrounded by padding i let go,
i screamed,punched out,begged,cried,and eventually laughed.it was a heartbroken,terrified,horrified rage.i put those inadequate below human torturers in their pitiful place.i won.i laughed with tearful joy as i described my beautiful children and the love from my wife.it was the first time i have ever screamed out what they did.uncensored.i tore them from limb to limb with my bare hands,as i would anyone who hurt my children.
i thought id been screaming for 10-20 mins.it was 90 mins.and i had to be helped up off the floor,exhausted and beautifully empty.
"my apple tree,my brightness,its time we were together"

[mystics]

WOW ADE WELL DONE :yesyes: :yesyes: :yesyes: :hugs: :hugs:

You do realize that we are all going to be screaming at docs for therapy where we can scream shout punch whatever is needed.lol

Well done again so pleased you feel lifted :yesyes: :yesyes:

Bet you'll sleep tonight!!!??

Brightest Angel Blessings
Mystics :flowers:

[happyone]

OMG!
well done!
Sounds very emotionally knackering though!
I can't believe there was such a thing available!
glad you found some relief.
Happyone
xx

[Lozzie]

Ade :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs:

Words cannot describe how proud I am of you.
It took alot of courage and strength to go through that and you did it and most importantly you WON!!!! :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs:

I hope this is a start of things to become better for you.
I hope the pain of the past will leave you now.
You are the most amazing person I have ever had the privilidge of speaking to. I have so much love and respect for you Ade.
I hope we are friends for a very long time.

You have helped me so so much, just by having someone that understands what I have been through is so touching and gives me hope :)
I hope I can return the favour and help you when you need it.
I am ALWAYS here for you, anytime u need me u know where I am :hugs:

I am so glad we met Ade and I hope our friendship lasts forever :hugs: :hugs:
You hold a very special place in my heart :flowers: :flowers:
Take care
Laura xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx:flowers:

[honeybee3939]

:yesyes: :yesyes: :yesyes: :yesyes:

Ade thats great news:yesyes: :yesyes:

Im proud of you hun.

WELL DONE !!!

Love
:hugs:
Andrea
xxxxx

[Lindalou64]

HELLO ADE,
IM SO HAPPY YOU FINALLY FOUGHT OFF THE DEMONS THAT HAVE BEEN WITH YOU FOR 30 YRS.....BIG BIG ACCOMPLISHMENT...I WISH YOU MUCH HAPPINESS AND SOUND PEACE OF MIND.....TAKE CARE ADE........LINDA XXX

[Ellen70]

Well done Ade, it must have felt kind of like an exorcism to let it all out.

I had therapy with a great guy for three years but I was never able to shed a single tear over my unhappy childhood.

But where on earth does a place where you can do this supervised exist? It sounds kind of like heaven. I once had a major screaming and kicking session in a psychiatric hospital but only got a needle in the bum and didn't wake again for 3 days.

I am really happy for you that you have been able to let your demons out.

Ellen x

[nomorepanic]

Ade

Well done - sounds like you needed to do that and glad it has helped! :yesyes:

[Southern_Belle]

Ade, I can't tell you how grateful I feel for you that such an environment existed for you to have done that. You needed to get all those feelings out. I do wish there were more places that let people vent their anger in a managed caring environment.

Hugs,

Laura :)