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07-05-18, 17:21
Hi everyone :)
I'm a 25 year old guy living in South Lanarkshire in Scotland. Although originally from West Sussex. I previously spent 5 years living in Wales.
My anxiety tends to focus on my health. After the sudden death of my mother in late 2012, I found myself convinced for 2 years that I was on the road to schizophrenia town. This was easily the worst time of my life and, with medication and the love of my beautiful girlfriend, I pulled through. We went on to have a perfect little girl and we've got another one on the way.
In November 2017, after over a year of feeling good, I decided to come off of the Venlafaxine that I credit with saving my life. Since then, however, I've not been good. I started feeling a bit down, which I put down to the long winter we've just had and also moving to a new country where I know nobody. This has now progressed to full-blown, life ruining anxiety in such a short period of time. I am now convinced I'm suffering from both bowel and throat cancer as well as niggling thoughts of MS.
The underlying dread/panic feeling is so similar it's bringing back memories of my last episode and I'm terrified. How can I expect my pregnant partner to deal with this again? I'm a dad now and I can't play with my daughter because I'm so crippled by 24/7 panic. The stakes this time are so much higher and I don't know how we're going to cope as a family.
Anyway, that's me... Or what's probably the worst of me. I'm really looking forward to getting to know you guys. You all seem so wise and knowledgeable.
I'm a 25 year old guy living in South Lanarkshire in Scotland. Although originally from West Sussex. I previously spent 5 years living in Wales.
My anxiety tends to focus on my health. After the sudden death of my mother in late 2012, I found myself convinced for 2 years that I was on the road to schizophrenia town. This was easily the worst time of my life and, with medication and the love of my beautiful girlfriend, I pulled through. We went on to have a perfect little girl and we've got another one on the way.
In November 2017, after over a year of feeling good, I decided to come off of the Venlafaxine that I credit with saving my life. Since then, however, I've not been good. I started feeling a bit down, which I put down to the long winter we've just had and also moving to a new country where I know nobody. This has now progressed to full-blown, life ruining anxiety in such a short period of time. I am now convinced I'm suffering from both bowel and throat cancer as well as niggling thoughts of MS.
The underlying dread/panic feeling is so similar it's bringing back memories of my last episode and I'm terrified. How can I expect my pregnant partner to deal with this again? I'm a dad now and I can't play with my daughter because I'm so crippled by 24/7 panic. The stakes this time are so much higher and I don't know how we're going to cope as a family.
Anyway, that's me... Or what's probably the worst of me. I'm really looking forward to getting to know you guys. You all seem so wise and knowledgeable.