palspals
15-05-18, 13:15
Sigh. I didn't miss this feeling. This feeling which is an illness it its own right. But it appears I am back in the grips of this nightmare- health anxiety. I swear, having health anxiety and many moles is a cruel joke. I hate myself actually and sort of wish I didn't exist...rather paradoxical that a fear of terminal illness would lead me to wish I didn't exist...but I'm so tired of feeling this way.
Anyway, I am at high risk for melanoma. I am as fair as one can be, I have many many moles, I live in Australia and I have had some blistering burns. Yes, I've had my skin checked...but I get new ones! Or old ones change etc... Also, I've picked some/got some lasered off and I worry that they could do something dodgy below the surface. I've noticed major growth of a mole on my arm and major darkening of a mole on my foot. Off to the doc in my lunch break tomorrow...
Is anyone else on here at high melanoma risk? If so, do you cope with it in an particular way?
Thanks so much in advance.
Anyway, I am at high risk for melanoma. I am as fair as one can be, I have many many moles, I live in Australia and I have had some blistering burns. Yes, I've had my skin checked...but I get new ones! Or old ones change etc... Also, I've picked some/got some lasered off and I worry that they could do something dodgy below the surface. I've noticed major growth of a mole on my arm and major darkening of a mole on my foot. Off to the doc in my lunch break tomorrow...
Is anyone else on here at high melanoma risk? If so, do you cope with it in an particular way?
Thanks so much in advance.