LouiseAndy
17-05-18, 03:41
Hi!
So, I've really been up and down with a lot of different worries but my new thought process in one of these horrible illness.
I have two very slight lump at the back of my head, one is on the left side just where my hairline stops. It's hard but it's only about the size of a pin head if not smaller. Since I can't see it it kinda reminds me of a hard lump of course but like a boil/pimple that never went away since I felt it for the first time months ago when scratching the back of my head. The other one of the left side is at the back of my neck which is kinda bigger and felt better when my head is a certain way but always there. Since I've been having a lot of neck stiffness my Mam has put cream on my neck a few times and she never commented on feeling anything. My neck has been very stiff and swore lately to a all most unbearable feeling.
I've become obsessed with checking my body to see if I've had any weight loss, which I've had but I also haven't been eating as much fatty foods as I used because I have acid reflex. Yet I feel like cuts and bruises seem to happen more often and take longer to heal.
I've had on/off issues that could be tension headache/sinus/ cold or other small issues that could be explain away but my mind keeps jumping to the worst case. I had bloods done in February and my Doctor said everything came back perfect. I've also had a chest x-ray (for a different issue), a ultrasound of my stomach, a CT scan of my lower body (kidneys etc) that nothing came back that badly from results.
If I'm not worried about these I'm worried about some other cancer or tumor . It's exhausting. I have had issues with energy levels but I haven't slept well really since last year. I'm trying to stop running to my doctor about every little thing but it always amounts up. I was there three weeks ago when I thought I had a lump in my collarbone area which she dissed. Like I'm meant to be flying for a holiday tomorrow but I can't get these worries out of my head and I so badly just want to enjoy myself like a normal 21 year old :shrug:
So, I've really been up and down with a lot of different worries but my new thought process in one of these horrible illness.
I have two very slight lump at the back of my head, one is on the left side just where my hairline stops. It's hard but it's only about the size of a pin head if not smaller. Since I can't see it it kinda reminds me of a hard lump of course but like a boil/pimple that never went away since I felt it for the first time months ago when scratching the back of my head. The other one of the left side is at the back of my neck which is kinda bigger and felt better when my head is a certain way but always there. Since I've been having a lot of neck stiffness my Mam has put cream on my neck a few times and she never commented on feeling anything. My neck has been very stiff and swore lately to a all most unbearable feeling.
I've become obsessed with checking my body to see if I've had any weight loss, which I've had but I also haven't been eating as much fatty foods as I used because I have acid reflex. Yet I feel like cuts and bruises seem to happen more often and take longer to heal.
I've had on/off issues that could be tension headache/sinus/ cold or other small issues that could be explain away but my mind keeps jumping to the worst case. I had bloods done in February and my Doctor said everything came back perfect. I've also had a chest x-ray (for a different issue), a ultrasound of my stomach, a CT scan of my lower body (kidneys etc) that nothing came back that badly from results.
If I'm not worried about these I'm worried about some other cancer or tumor . It's exhausting. I have had issues with energy levels but I haven't slept well really since last year. I'm trying to stop running to my doctor about every little thing but it always amounts up. I was there three weeks ago when I thought I had a lump in my collarbone area which she dissed. Like I'm meant to be flying for a holiday tomorrow but I can't get these worries out of my head and I so badly just want to enjoy myself like a normal 21 year old :shrug: