Jpork
22-07-07, 00:53
Hi everyone. I'll get right to it.
I had a staff meeting for work yesterday. It was held a few miles away from work, so i went to a friends house so we could get a taxi together. The taxi was very late, wich meant that we turned up very late to the meeting, there were about 6 of us who were late.
We nocked on the meeting room door, and when it opend i saw that the room was very small, hot and stuffy. Not enough chairs, lots of people stood up. We all filed in, and i stood close to a guy who was already in there. And the rest of the late people filed in behind me and stood there.
As i was listening to my boss drone on about yearly sales, i very suddenly became aware of how uncomfortable i was. I started fidgeting and feeling really hot, my heart started racing. I thought to myself "just ignore it" And continued listening to my boss. Then i started to ask myself just how long this meeting was going to last, and i realised i might not be able to wait that long, as i now felt like my heart was going to explode. I looked to my right - lots of people, to my left - lots of people. A desk infront of me and a wall behind me.
The adrenaline rush i felt afterwards was uncomparable to anything i have experienced before. My heart was thumping like a jack hammer and i felt a tingle come from my toes all the way my body till i felt light headed.
i HAD to get out. I felt like at the time if i had to kill someone to get out of there i would have. I managed to stap over peoples feet and push past people and fumbled with the handle clumsily, evening finding this difficult.
When i got outside the most incredible weight was lifted off me, but i began to have serious worries. I have always been paranoid in large social settings, but i always ignored them. I felt like i was submitting to a voice in my head or something. I genuinly felt like i wasnt right.
Im sorry for the long post but i have to let this out somewhere. It was hugely embarrasing and i really am worried about it.
I had a mini "flashback" today while stood in line at the bank, but luckily the clerk asked me to move forward before it got out of control.
What is happening to me?
Thankyou to anyone who replies.
And if you only read my post, thanks too.
I had a staff meeting for work yesterday. It was held a few miles away from work, so i went to a friends house so we could get a taxi together. The taxi was very late, wich meant that we turned up very late to the meeting, there were about 6 of us who were late.
We nocked on the meeting room door, and when it opend i saw that the room was very small, hot and stuffy. Not enough chairs, lots of people stood up. We all filed in, and i stood close to a guy who was already in there. And the rest of the late people filed in behind me and stood there.
As i was listening to my boss drone on about yearly sales, i very suddenly became aware of how uncomfortable i was. I started fidgeting and feeling really hot, my heart started racing. I thought to myself "just ignore it" And continued listening to my boss. Then i started to ask myself just how long this meeting was going to last, and i realised i might not be able to wait that long, as i now felt like my heart was going to explode. I looked to my right - lots of people, to my left - lots of people. A desk infront of me and a wall behind me.
The adrenaline rush i felt afterwards was uncomparable to anything i have experienced before. My heart was thumping like a jack hammer and i felt a tingle come from my toes all the way my body till i felt light headed.
i HAD to get out. I felt like at the time if i had to kill someone to get out of there i would have. I managed to stap over peoples feet and push past people and fumbled with the handle clumsily, evening finding this difficult.
When i got outside the most incredible weight was lifted off me, but i began to have serious worries. I have always been paranoid in large social settings, but i always ignored them. I felt like i was submitting to a voice in my head or something. I genuinly felt like i wasnt right.
Im sorry for the long post but i have to let this out somewhere. It was hugely embarrasing and i really am worried about it.
I had a mini "flashback" today while stood in line at the bank, but luckily the clerk asked me to move forward before it got out of control.
What is happening to me?
Thankyou to anyone who replies.
And if you only read my post, thanks too.