darklantern
23-05-18, 12:59
Hi everyone.
So I have a friend whom I love very much, who is coming to visit me for 10 days. When she first booked the trip, I remember feeling surprised that she was going to be here for so long, but she had mentioned she might bring a friend. Her friend was no longer able to join her, so now she’s coming alone.
I’m happy that I’ll be able to see her, because she lives very far and we talk all the time. It will be really good to be able to talk in person and hang out and go places.
Her trip starts tomorrow, but I’m actually REALLY ANXIOUS about it. I am a loner, and I definitely am the type of person who likes to be around people but then spend the rest of the evening alone. I don’t know how I will keep her entertained for so many days, and I also worry that I won’t want to do the things she wants to do, which is completely selfish. I know it’s her vacation and I know that it’s selfish, but whenever I experience anxiety, I become very concerned about only myself, because all I want is to feel ‘normal’ again.
I woke up feeling achy, tired and nauseous. I know that it’s all in my head, but there’s this thought of ‘But what if I get sick when she’s here? I need to be her chauffeur and her caretaker while she’s here. I can’t get sick.’
I genuinely wish her trip was shorter. I feel so terrible admitting it but I feel better telling someone, somewhere, to get it off my chest.
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So I have a friend whom I love very much, who is coming to visit me for 10 days. When she first booked the trip, I remember feeling surprised that she was going to be here for so long, but she had mentioned she might bring a friend. Her friend was no longer able to join her, so now she’s coming alone.
I’m happy that I’ll be able to see her, because she lives very far and we talk all the time. It will be really good to be able to talk in person and hang out and go places.
Her trip starts tomorrow, but I’m actually REALLY ANXIOUS about it. I am a loner, and I definitely am the type of person who likes to be around people but then spend the rest of the evening alone. I don’t know how I will keep her entertained for so many days, and I also worry that I won’t want to do the things she wants to do, which is completely selfish. I know it’s her vacation and I know that it’s selfish, but whenever I experience anxiety, I become very concerned about only myself, because all I want is to feel ‘normal’ again.
I woke up feeling achy, tired and nauseous. I know that it’s all in my head, but there’s this thought of ‘But what if I get sick when she’s here? I need to be her chauffeur and her caretaker while she’s here. I can’t get sick.’
I genuinely wish her trip was shorter. I feel so terrible admitting it but I feel better telling someone, somewhere, to get it off my chest.
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