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26-05-18, 17:24
I know this is going to sound barmy, but in my own mind, if I write it out, it might not seem as crazy.
When I was little...maybe about 8 or 9, I remember watching a documentary about Richard Beckinsale (The Porridge actor for UK peeps), from a young age I loved old comedies and comedians. So watching stuff like this with my parents was a common practice.
Anyway, for people who don't know, he died at age 31 from a heart attack, he had a rare heart defect that was never found until he died.
This really stuck with me and upset me as a child as I've always had this thing in my head that I would die young and I've always had this worry about my heart.
No one listened to him either and he had pains in his arms and they only found high chlorestoral and my chlorestoral has been high in the past, with no other symptoms. He was scared of dying and new something was wrong but no one listened to him.
I don't know how to put it, but I'm 31 now and to think someone could just have a heart attack at my age is terrifying and his story has stuck with me from a young age. I feel like I'm almost 'sensing' that I'm going to be a similiar story to his, with no one listening to me.
It's playing on my mind even more lately and I've been watching Porridge on Netflix and I guess it's just got my mind racing.
Anyone else had the same? It's a long shot, but as I say, I just wanted to put it out there and see if it sounded less crazy.
When I was little...maybe about 8 or 9, I remember watching a documentary about Richard Beckinsale (The Porridge actor for UK peeps), from a young age I loved old comedies and comedians. So watching stuff like this with my parents was a common practice.
Anyway, for people who don't know, he died at age 31 from a heart attack, he had a rare heart defect that was never found until he died.
This really stuck with me and upset me as a child as I've always had this thing in my head that I would die young and I've always had this worry about my heart.
No one listened to him either and he had pains in his arms and they only found high chlorestoral and my chlorestoral has been high in the past, with no other symptoms. He was scared of dying and new something was wrong but no one listened to him.
I don't know how to put it, but I'm 31 now and to think someone could just have a heart attack at my age is terrifying and his story has stuck with me from a young age. I feel like I'm almost 'sensing' that I'm going to be a similiar story to his, with no one listening to me.
It's playing on my mind even more lately and I've been watching Porridge on Netflix and I guess it's just got my mind racing.
Anyone else had the same? It's a long shot, but as I say, I just wanted to put it out there and see if it sounded less crazy.