Nerdling2
26-05-18, 20:01
So, my GP said after questioning that I'm Severe level high-functioning anxiety and referred me for online CBT (well, for EMDR actually but i couldnt get the time off work so they have me online CBT instead). But she didn't give me any formal label or diagnosis at all.
From reading your posts, the best 'fit' for me seems to be GAD but I really don't know.
I've always always had a sense of doom and that things just weren't right - in fact, as a child my most used word was 'doom'...it became a bit of a joke, except I wasn't laughing. I was obsessed with death, illness, war from about age 4 and it grew in intensity as I got older. I cannot pinpoint reasons.
Today, in my 30s, I don't know if it counts as phobias or just something much more generalised because I am literally scared of everything, all the time. There is very little time that I don't feel something is very wrong.
If I had to list specific fears and major stressors, they'd include:
Terrorism (big one)
Wars
group social situations
Motorway driving
Air travel (I think this one really is a phobia)
Cancer
Something bad happening to my pets or children
Minor details around the house not being right eg chipped paint or the fridge packed in the wrong order
People coming to my house
Mess
Mould
public transport
1 or more if them is constantly in my mind; they just layer on top of each other. Sometimes there are more layers than other times and then it gets worse.
Is this how it is for you?
Another key aspect for me is being 'locked in '...i can't put into words what I'm feeling, no matter how hard I try, with my husband or friends in person. Even if I desperately want to - I try, my mind locks down, nothing comes out of my mouth. It is soul destroying and causing issues in my marriage. I'd like to create another thread about that aspect but not sure if I'm allowed multiple threads so have put it here for now.
From reading your posts, the best 'fit' for me seems to be GAD but I really don't know.
I've always always had a sense of doom and that things just weren't right - in fact, as a child my most used word was 'doom'...it became a bit of a joke, except I wasn't laughing. I was obsessed with death, illness, war from about age 4 and it grew in intensity as I got older. I cannot pinpoint reasons.
Today, in my 30s, I don't know if it counts as phobias or just something much more generalised because I am literally scared of everything, all the time. There is very little time that I don't feel something is very wrong.
If I had to list specific fears and major stressors, they'd include:
Terrorism (big one)
Wars
group social situations
Motorway driving
Air travel (I think this one really is a phobia)
Cancer
Something bad happening to my pets or children
Minor details around the house not being right eg chipped paint or the fridge packed in the wrong order
People coming to my house
Mess
Mould
public transport
1 or more if them is constantly in my mind; they just layer on top of each other. Sometimes there are more layers than other times and then it gets worse.
Is this how it is for you?
Another key aspect for me is being 'locked in '...i can't put into words what I'm feeling, no matter how hard I try, with my husband or friends in person. Even if I desperately want to - I try, my mind locks down, nothing comes out of my mouth. It is soul destroying and causing issues in my marriage. I'd like to create another thread about that aspect but not sure if I'm allowed multiple threads so have put it here for now.