crazygal
31-05-18, 03:52
I've doing good withy healthy anxiety for the past 7 months. Haven't had any slip ups or anything. But I'm now back at square one.
I'm 30 years old and a virgin. Recently I've decided to give it. My whole life I never tried inserting anything. I grew in a religious household where it was deemed sinful.
Anyways I recently decided that it's foolish to wait until I'm married to do the deed. I'm not getting any younger.
I tried using a tampon for the first time in my life ( tampons were also grown d upon for unmarried women in my religion) and I couldn't insert it. I tried twice and soon as I started pushing it in it got really painful.
I googled it and it seems some women have thick hymen that need to be surgically removed.
I broke down crying and freaking out. Because it requires surgery to remove it.
I'm so depressed and scared now. I'm in full anxiety mode now.
I don't know how to do deal with this. And I'm so scared of going to the gyno because I feel like she's just going to confirm my fears.
I'm 30 years old and a virgin. Recently I've decided to give it. My whole life I never tried inserting anything. I grew in a religious household where it was deemed sinful.
Anyways I recently decided that it's foolish to wait until I'm married to do the deed. I'm not getting any younger.
I tried using a tampon for the first time in my life ( tampons were also grown d upon for unmarried women in my religion) and I couldn't insert it. I tried twice and soon as I started pushing it in it got really painful.
I googled it and it seems some women have thick hymen that need to be surgically removed.
I broke down crying and freaking out. Because it requires surgery to remove it.
I'm so depressed and scared now. I'm in full anxiety mode now.
I don't know how to do deal with this. And I'm so scared of going to the gyno because I feel like she's just going to confirm my fears.