NewYorkgirl
31-05-18, 10:12
This month marks a year since the start if my most recent bout of Health Anxiety. And possibly my worst one yet. Since May 2017 I have lived in utter fear of
Psorasis
Hair Loss
Cervical Cancer
Ovarian cancer
Bowel Cancer
Appendicitis
Brain Tumour
Blood Clots
IBS
All of these had/have very real symptoms that completely dictate how I live my life. It has made me so miserable. For a whole year!! I keep saying it to myself because I can't believe that a year of my life had been consumed with all these things that haven't amounted to anything. Yet I still continue to worry, symptom check, Google, seek reassurance. Somedays are far better than others yet other days are a write off as soon as I wake up. The busier I am the better I am. It's a long road but there has to be an end eventually because I'm not wasting another year that I can't get back. I realise this is just a rambling post that has no relevance but maybe someone else will read it and think Wow that's me, all this time wasted. And start making baby steps to help themselves like I'm doing. Here's to a brighter happier 12 months.
Psorasis
Hair Loss
Cervical Cancer
Ovarian cancer
Bowel Cancer
Appendicitis
Brain Tumour
Blood Clots
IBS
All of these had/have very real symptoms that completely dictate how I live my life. It has made me so miserable. For a whole year!! I keep saying it to myself because I can't believe that a year of my life had been consumed with all these things that haven't amounted to anything. Yet I still continue to worry, symptom check, Google, seek reassurance. Somedays are far better than others yet other days are a write off as soon as I wake up. The busier I am the better I am. It's a long road but there has to be an end eventually because I'm not wasting another year that I can't get back. I realise this is just a rambling post that has no relevance but maybe someone else will read it and think Wow that's me, all this time wasted. And start making baby steps to help themselves like I'm doing. Here's to a brighter happier 12 months.