russ
24-07-07, 17:59
Basically my story is far too complicated to explain in detail. Essentially I have suffered from anxiety most of my adult life, in the last 12 months health anxiety and I'm sure depression.
Due to a range of factors at 28 I've only ever had one job, I haven't worked for around 5 years now. For some of this I was helping to look after my terminally ill dad and nan, then I was suffering from grief (still am) then I also had a cancer scare myself and then a dibilatating muscle pull which was really bad for 6 months and led to panic attacks, this is what I was told at A&E, but I've never been treated for it.
I didn't care about anything, because I thought I was on the brink of dying.
I've never signed-on because of the hassle I would get and so I just live at home, use the internet and do the household jobs, gardens, decorating, etc. I've also setup a website and work on that.
However, I'm at the point where i feel a simple job (like a Christmas job) may do me good. It may fill my time and help me make some form of recovery, give my life some structure and focus. I'd just like to do something simple that doesn't involve meeting too many people.
However, I'm totally unsure what I'd like to do. I also feel after being without a job for 5 years people won't want to employ me. I also don't want to explain my past to them because it is so private and upsetting. I'm also not sure I can attend an interview etc.
I'm just looking for some advice and guidance really. Has anyone been in this position? Has anyone any advice or suggestions for a possible job? I don't know what to do! :shrug:
All I know is I'm heading nowhere fast these days. Basically I feel it is too late for me. :(
Due to a range of factors at 28 I've only ever had one job, I haven't worked for around 5 years now. For some of this I was helping to look after my terminally ill dad and nan, then I was suffering from grief (still am) then I also had a cancer scare myself and then a dibilatating muscle pull which was really bad for 6 months and led to panic attacks, this is what I was told at A&E, but I've never been treated for it.
I didn't care about anything, because I thought I was on the brink of dying.
I've never signed-on because of the hassle I would get and so I just live at home, use the internet and do the household jobs, gardens, decorating, etc. I've also setup a website and work on that.
However, I'm at the point where i feel a simple job (like a Christmas job) may do me good. It may fill my time and help me make some form of recovery, give my life some structure and focus. I'd just like to do something simple that doesn't involve meeting too many people.
However, I'm totally unsure what I'd like to do. I also feel after being without a job for 5 years people won't want to employ me. I also don't want to explain my past to them because it is so private and upsetting. I'm also not sure I can attend an interview etc.
I'm just looking for some advice and guidance really. Has anyone been in this position? Has anyone any advice or suggestions for a possible job? I don't know what to do! :shrug:
All I know is I'm heading nowhere fast these days. Basically I feel it is too late for me. :(