flappergirl
31-05-18, 23:53
Am totally stuck in a spiral of HA again. The other day, I went to GP as I was worried about two largish freckles I had on my arm. The GP said they were nothing and not to worry.
Now I am panicking over a mole on my stomach. It has been there for ages and is fairly large, and I think it stretched when I was pregnant (7 years ago). For some reason now I am obsessing about it. It is symmetrical, mostly one colour and fairly oval, and isn’t doing anything weird or worrying apart from being there. It is on the large size but doesn’t seem to be growing more than has been stetches along with my stretch marks lol!!
I have looked at it 10000000s of times today and asked my family for reassurance.... and here I am again feeling sick, heart pounding, dooming and glooming.
I spoke to my CBT person to talk about my new spiral yesterday and he has given me a couple of tasks to do but I am struggling so much to stop the worry.
I want to go to the gp to get it checked but am scared I’ll get a skin cancer referral. Also I went 2 days ago so obviously I’ll seem mad (I probably already am mad to them). I don’t feel I can ignore it as it could be something (or nothing). Should I go for peace of mind? I am currently focusing on statistics being favourable if sc caught early.... and trying not to worry about it being advanced :doh:
I am so tired of this HA, it started last year when both my parents were diagnosed with cancer (both doing really well thank god) and then my sister in law died from cancer at Christmas, and I just feel like it is cancer everywhere so I must have it too. Not rational I know but I am way past rational at this point.
What do I do?
Now I am panicking over a mole on my stomach. It has been there for ages and is fairly large, and I think it stretched when I was pregnant (7 years ago). For some reason now I am obsessing about it. It is symmetrical, mostly one colour and fairly oval, and isn’t doing anything weird or worrying apart from being there. It is on the large size but doesn’t seem to be growing more than has been stetches along with my stretch marks lol!!
I have looked at it 10000000s of times today and asked my family for reassurance.... and here I am again feeling sick, heart pounding, dooming and glooming.
I spoke to my CBT person to talk about my new spiral yesterday and he has given me a couple of tasks to do but I am struggling so much to stop the worry.
I want to go to the gp to get it checked but am scared I’ll get a skin cancer referral. Also I went 2 days ago so obviously I’ll seem mad (I probably already am mad to them). I don’t feel I can ignore it as it could be something (or nothing). Should I go for peace of mind? I am currently focusing on statistics being favourable if sc caught early.... and trying not to worry about it being advanced :doh:
I am so tired of this HA, it started last year when both my parents were diagnosed with cancer (both doing really well thank god) and then my sister in law died from cancer at Christmas, and I just feel like it is cancer everywhere so I must have it too. Not rational I know but I am way past rational at this point.
What do I do?