zephyrsapphire
07-06-18, 00:08
Hello all!
Thank you in advance for reading what is going to be a quite lengthy vent! For some background, I am a 30 YO female, no kids, I've been dealing with health anxiety for a few months now. Many people close to me have been diagnosed with or had a recurrence of cancer in the past year, and it's made me absolutely terrified that I'm next. The issue really plaguing me currently is leg pain. A few months ago, I started experiencing pain in my left side (low back and leg/butt). It felt like a 'sciatic' pain, with numbness and tingling. I just thought I was getting older and this was something new I'd have to get used to. Fast forward a few months, and I've now got pain in the other leg. Not as frequent, but still there. Depending on the day, my pain seems to 'hop' around from leg to leg, and to be anywhere from my butt, thigh (inner and outer), or calf. Sometimes it goes into my hips as well. When it first started, it went all the way into my foot/toes, but I haven't felt that in some time.
My initial fear was that I had a spinal tumour (I know, worst-case-scenario!) which I got very panicky about. I went to my GP, who didn't seem too concerned. She did refer me for an MRI and x-rays. The x-rays showed nothing wrong with the bone, no tumour on the MRI. The MRI did find some herniated discs, but everything I Google (I know Googling is a bad idea, but I can't seem to stop!) seems to show that I shouldn't be having leg pain with those discs being herniated. Or at least not in both legs. And now it's only my legs that are hurting...my back really doesn't feel that bad anymore. I've since become convinced that I have ovarian cancer, which has leg pain as a symptom. The worst part of this is, now that it's starting in the other leg, I've convinced myself that it's spreading throughout my ovaries and pelvis, or into other organs. Since leg pain usually isn't felt (from what I've read) until the cancer is advanced, that scares me even further. If I ever get pain, or a period cramp (periods have been regular, which makes me feel a little bit better) or every time I'm bloated or my stomach doesn't feel perfectly right, I get crazy nervous all over again. I have a GYN appointment next week, but the fear is getting to me while waiting and it can't come soon enough.
I'm sorry for the length of this, but just had to get it off my chest. I don't feel I can tell anyone close to me about this. Either they would think I was crazy, or I would make them worry when hopefully there is nothing even wrong with me in the first place. I'm just so scared and don't know where else to turn at this point.
Thank you in advance for reading what is going to be a quite lengthy vent! For some background, I am a 30 YO female, no kids, I've been dealing with health anxiety for a few months now. Many people close to me have been diagnosed with or had a recurrence of cancer in the past year, and it's made me absolutely terrified that I'm next. The issue really plaguing me currently is leg pain. A few months ago, I started experiencing pain in my left side (low back and leg/butt). It felt like a 'sciatic' pain, with numbness and tingling. I just thought I was getting older and this was something new I'd have to get used to. Fast forward a few months, and I've now got pain in the other leg. Not as frequent, but still there. Depending on the day, my pain seems to 'hop' around from leg to leg, and to be anywhere from my butt, thigh (inner and outer), or calf. Sometimes it goes into my hips as well. When it first started, it went all the way into my foot/toes, but I haven't felt that in some time.
My initial fear was that I had a spinal tumour (I know, worst-case-scenario!) which I got very panicky about. I went to my GP, who didn't seem too concerned. She did refer me for an MRI and x-rays. The x-rays showed nothing wrong with the bone, no tumour on the MRI. The MRI did find some herniated discs, but everything I Google (I know Googling is a bad idea, but I can't seem to stop!) seems to show that I shouldn't be having leg pain with those discs being herniated. Or at least not in both legs. And now it's only my legs that are hurting...my back really doesn't feel that bad anymore. I've since become convinced that I have ovarian cancer, which has leg pain as a symptom. The worst part of this is, now that it's starting in the other leg, I've convinced myself that it's spreading throughout my ovaries and pelvis, or into other organs. Since leg pain usually isn't felt (from what I've read) until the cancer is advanced, that scares me even further. If I ever get pain, or a period cramp (periods have been regular, which makes me feel a little bit better) or every time I'm bloated or my stomach doesn't feel perfectly right, I get crazy nervous all over again. I have a GYN appointment next week, but the fear is getting to me while waiting and it can't come soon enough.
I'm sorry for the length of this, but just had to get it off my chest. I don't feel I can tell anyone close to me about this. Either they would think I was crazy, or I would make them worry when hopefully there is nothing even wrong with me in the first place. I'm just so scared and don't know where else to turn at this point.