bby2018
09-07-18, 16:37
My life is currently being ruined by anxiety. I just had my third baby almost 4 months ago. My other children are 18 months and 5 years. I am sure the back to back pregnancies and up and down of hormones have a lot to do with my feelings. Anyway - last summer - right at one year ago, i developed terrible panic attacks. They were everyday, back to back. It all started because I woke up one night with the chills and noticed my legs had a few bruises on them. Google said I had leukemia. So I FREAKED! Went to the ER multiple times thinking I was sick or was about to have a heart attack. My HR was so high at every visit (140s resting). It was an awful time.
It got somewhat better over the next few months after my doctor diagnosed me with GAD. So, anytime I had weird symptoms I would brush them off and accept that it was more than likely anxiety.
For some reason, since the birth of my third, I am unable to brush off the symptoms and they get more and more weird. Just this month I have self diagnosed myself with lymphoma, MS, ALS, breast cancer, and a blood clot. Why? Because I have:
an enlarged lymph node on my neck (doctor dismissed)
painful armpits sometimes (probably due to intense postpartum cycles)
easy bruising (doc ruled out anything sinister with cbc, all was normal)
muscle twitching
right groin pain (random, mostly with exercise)
right calf numb
tinnitus (woke up to a loud ringing in my ear that scared the crap out of me)
woke up to half my chin being numb a couple times (keep falling asleep with my hand on my face, but if you google this its pretty scary!!!)
and I have a round patch of skin on my groin that is slightly discolored, which is why I think I have a blood clot. But it’s so slight no one but me really notices unless you look really hard and in certain lights.
I also have random icepick/cluster headaches. Those seem to come on when I am working (am currently on maternity leave still).
So, as you can see, I have an array of random symptoms that come and go. The latest has been the groin pain and numbness with the discoloration. There is no swelling. Pain is worse when exercising and started after I used our total gym for the first time. I know a logical person would just assume its a pulled groin and maybe the discoloration has always been like that but I am zeroing in on it because I have health anxiety. UGH. I would l like to go to the doctor to rule out a blood clot with ultrasound but I'm sure my family would think I am a freak because I have been to the doctor twice in the past two weeks for other symptoms.
How can I get over this awful episode??
It got somewhat better over the next few months after my doctor diagnosed me with GAD. So, anytime I had weird symptoms I would brush them off and accept that it was more than likely anxiety.
For some reason, since the birth of my third, I am unable to brush off the symptoms and they get more and more weird. Just this month I have self diagnosed myself with lymphoma, MS, ALS, breast cancer, and a blood clot. Why? Because I have:
an enlarged lymph node on my neck (doctor dismissed)
painful armpits sometimes (probably due to intense postpartum cycles)
easy bruising (doc ruled out anything sinister with cbc, all was normal)
muscle twitching
right groin pain (random, mostly with exercise)
right calf numb
tinnitus (woke up to a loud ringing in my ear that scared the crap out of me)
woke up to half my chin being numb a couple times (keep falling asleep with my hand on my face, but if you google this its pretty scary!!!)
and I have a round patch of skin on my groin that is slightly discolored, which is why I think I have a blood clot. But it’s so slight no one but me really notices unless you look really hard and in certain lights.
I also have random icepick/cluster headaches. Those seem to come on when I am working (am currently on maternity leave still).
So, as you can see, I have an array of random symptoms that come and go. The latest has been the groin pain and numbness with the discoloration. There is no swelling. Pain is worse when exercising and started after I used our total gym for the first time. I know a logical person would just assume its a pulled groin and maybe the discoloration has always been like that but I am zeroing in on it because I have health anxiety. UGH. I would l like to go to the doctor to rule out a blood clot with ultrasound but I'm sure my family would think I am a freak because I have been to the doctor twice in the past two weeks for other symptoms.
How can I get over this awful episode??