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anxiousmom15
11-07-18, 18:56
Hello all, this is my first post, but NMP has helped me so much over the years with my persistent HA I thought this might be the time to stop being a lurker :) I'm sorry for the long-windedness of this post.

I am pregnant with my 3rd child. My 2nd is only 14 months so it's been a crazy time. I was suffering severely with HA just before getting pregnant again because I was losing a LOT of weight while nursing my 2nd baby. He is a very big boy and after having blood counts and a thyroid test done (all normal), my GP chalked it up to breastfeeding, an overabundant milk supply, and the fact that my baby is so big. When he was 10 months old I unexpectedly got pregnant again. At first I thought this was great news for my HA because in the past I've tended to do better while pregnant (something else to focus on I guess) but this time my HA has only increased during the pregnancy.

Anyone who has been pregnant knows that when you are pregnant virtually EVERY symptom you have gets blamed on the pregnancy. So any weird symptoms I have had are basically brushed off, and I think I would normally brush them off too, but in the context of the worries about the weight loss I am always sure that every symptom is linked to that and that I have some kind of undiagnosed cancer. I have gained weight much more slowly this pregnancy than I did in the last 2 and my appetite has been terrible when it is usually voracious during pregnancy. I am halfway through and I am barely up to my usual PRE-pregnancy weight because I started out about 10 lbs below normal for me (which was on the verge of underweight for my height). My OB is not concerned because my weight gain is still technically following a normal curve.

My newest worry is lung cancer. I have never smoked a single cigarette, but I have had a persistent throat clearing problem (productive, with mucus coming up) for about 6 weeks now. Some days are worse than others but it has been very persistent and causes my voice to sometimes crack and go slightly hoarse. I finally went to my GP, who believes it might be either allergies or a sinus problem (although I don't have sinus congestion and I have been tested for environmental allergies, all negative). Thus, she thinks the mucus is coming DOWN via post nasal drip rather than UP from my chest. She also put me on Amoxycillin in case of sinusitis since the symptoms have lasted for so long. I have also had blood in my saliva which she believes is a combination of bleeding gums and blood from my sinuses (common pregnancy problems because of increased blood volume). She does not think a chest xray is warranted at this point, which is what I was hoping to get.

Again, I think in the absence of the problems with my appetite and weight, I wouldn't be concerned about this. My HA has focused on a lot of things, but never lung cancer, especially since I have never smoked and have no known risk factors. Of course, now thanks to Google I know that a surprising number of lung cancer cases are in young nonsmokers (thanks, doc...), and my fear is that at some point I am going to find out I do in fact have lung cancer and looking back it's going to seem obvious because I had already been experiencing appetite issues and unintentional weight loss.

I realize that no one can actually give me medical advice about these problems, but I'm hoping someone might have experience with HA in pregnancy and the unique problems that come with this. For example, most doctors are very reluctant to do any unnecessary tests, esp xrays and CT scans, during pregnancy, and as I already mentioned, most weird symptoms are swiftly attributed to the pregnancy. I feel stuck, like I have done all I can do and there is no point in pushing it with my doctors, but I am having a hard time imagining how I can possibly relax and cope through the rest of the pregnancy without being able to get any tests that might offer some peace of mind. Thanks in advance if you've gotten this far :)

jojo2316
11-07-18, 22:27
So sorry you are going through this and I can relate. My HA always got worse when pregnant and when I was pregnant with my fourth, five years ago, I became obsessed with the idea that I had lung cancer. I’ve never been a smoker but I had a chest infection that didn’t clear and a funny squeak deep in my chest. Doctors weren’t worried but I spiralled and convinced myself I was coughing up blood (I repeatedly coughed then wiped the back of my throat to check for blood and of course, eventually, there was. It was MAD, looking back). And the panic was made SO much worse by the feeling that I couldn’t access the Cat scans and X-rays I felt I needed. It was a horrible, terrifying time. (I’m still alive though, and have a beautiful healthy five year old though!) I’m sure you are not as nutty as I was - but I do understand. Stay strong and good luck
Jojo x

poppy77
11-07-18, 22:52
Hey Anxious Mom,

Congratulations on your new pregnancy!!!

I think what it sounds like you're suffering from, as well as health anxiety (heightened by your hormones) is pregnancy related acid reflux. Pregnancy causes pressure on the stomach valve which is further weakened by the relaxin hormone. Acid reflux does not always mean heartburn, it can mean throat issues as well such as throat mucus, throat clearing and hoarseness. Try some Gaviscon or ask the doctors if they think acid reflux might be the issue.

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Also, a lot of acid reflux sufferers never get heartburn!

Londonlady
11-07-18, 23:07
I’m also pregnant with my second and can relate, I’ve recently been referred due to a dodgy mole and it’s set me off worse than ever I can’t stop crying and feel like this poor baby will be effected by all my anxiety and stress. It’s horrible.

jojo2316
11-07-18, 23:18
I’m also pregnant with my second and can relate, I’ve recently been referred due to a dodgy mole and it’s set me off worse than ever I can’t stop crying and feel like this poor baby will be effected by all my anxiety and stress. It’s horrible.

Please try not to worry too much about that. My baby number 4, with whom I had the worst pregnancy HA, ( I was nearly sectioned, was put on medication etc) is the happiest, most loving laid back 5 year old there ever was. And I spent most of her pregnancy in abject TERROR. So your baby will be fine.

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Hahah yes! THIS time is always different isn’t it? Hang in there. You don’t have lung cancer.

anxiousmom15
11-07-18, 23:23
So sorry you are going through this and I can relate. My HA always got worse when pregnant and when I was pregnant with my fourth, five years ago, I became obsessed with the idea that I had lung cancer. I’ve never been a smoker but I had a chest infection that didn’t clear and a funny squeak deep in my chest. Doctors weren’t worried but I spiralled and convinced myself I was coughing up blood (I repeatedly coughed then wiped the back of my throat to check for blood and of course, eventually, there was. It was MAD, looking back). And the panic was made SO much worse by the feeling that I couldn’t access the Cat scans and X-rays I felt I needed. It was a horrible, terrifying time. (I’m still alive though, and have a beautiful healthy five year old though!) I’m sure you are not as nutty as I was - but I do understand. Stay strong and good luck
Jojo x

Thank you so much for your reply. I can assure you I am just as nutty (my husband would agree, haha!). I am so sorry you went through this too, but it does help immensely to hear from someone on the other side!

ETA: And apologies that I replied and then deleted! I couldn’t tell if I had actually replied to you, so I deleted and reposted. Still learning how this works!

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Hey Anxious Mom,

Congratulations on your new pregnancy!!!

I think what it sounds like you're suffering from, as well as health anxiety (heightened by your hormones) is pregnancy related acid reflux. Pregnancy causes pressure on the stomach valve which is further weakened by the relaxin hormone. Acid reflux does not always mean heartburn, it can mean throat issues as well such as throat mucus, throat clearing and hoarseness. Try some Gaviscon or ask the doctors if they think acid reflux might be the issue.

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Also, a lot of acid reflux sufferers never get heartburn!
Thanks so much, I had thought about acid reflux too but thought it wasn’t likely since I don’t have heartburn! I will definitely ask about that if this doesn’t go away soon!

katniss
12-07-18, 20:25
Hello!

Yes, as beautiful and magical of a time pregnancy it is, it is also an incredibly nerve racking experience for us health anxiety sufferers. I have to clear up mucus constantly as well and have had this issue for years now. I have sinus issues so I am pretty sure it is due to that.

One piece of advice is to not let this affect you so much that it starts affecting your pregnancy. Try to enjoy this time and relax. If you feel to anxious then just busy yourself. I am telling you from experience. During my 2nd pregnancy I had the regular battery of blood tests performed. One of them showed positive antibodies for HIV. My regular fam doc saw it and didn’t even tell me because she knew I didn’t have it and she knew it sometimes showed false positives for pregnant women. Anyway, when I got transferred to an on/gyn they blew it out of proportion. I got more tests done and got referred to an infectious disease specialist. I was dying inside for TWO MONTHS. Even though every single doc I saw said I wouldn’t have it and it was simply a false positive which can happen during pregnancy I couldn’t take their answer as fact. They also didn’t help because they kept referring me for more detailed testing. After two months I finally got a viral load blood test which confirmed I didn’t have it. But this was too long of a waiting period for me and I drives myself nuts. I was in a monogamous relationship, never took drugs, heck I had never ever had intercourse with anyone except my husband ever. And to all of a sudden get this crazy result was beyond me. I was googling and googling every day and every night. Thank goodness all was okay and I didn’t have it BUT my daughter was born with a very low birth weight. She stopped gaining weight and had to be induced prematurely. She’s fine now. But no one knows why this happened - my placenta was aging prematurely and wasn’t giving her the nourishment she needed to grow. I researched after and found that this can be caused by stress during pregnancy. If only I had listened to my family and even my doctors I may not have stressed out my little baby. This makes me so upset every single time. We could have saved my baby from NICU time, blood tests, IVs, etc;

This is not to scare you, it is simply a message to take care of your emotional health especially when you have a little being growing inside of you. You don’t ever want them to get hurt because of something you could have potentially controlled. Get therapy or get anxiety meds, whatever helps to keep that baby safe

Mummyto3
14-07-18, 11:12
I could have wrote this myself. I'm 12 weeks preganant and have convinced myself I have lung cancer because I've been bringing up mucus usually in the mornings and it has some tiny tiny spec if blood. I did get anti biotics that cleared it up but I've now got some back pain which is probably pregnancy related but my mind is making me think otherwise. Ix

hope_girl
15-07-18, 05:23
I have been in your position. Twice. My advice is to chose to believe the Doctor. Make a conscious decision to let go of your need to figure it out, push for tests, etc. and make the choice to trust your health into the care of your doctor who is way more qualified than you. This can be your gift to your unborn child - surrendering the need to know more and letting the more qualified care giver to care for you. Health anxiety will take you down any route of illness and what may have sounded never scary to you becomes the new thing. But show it who is really boss. Chose to believe the doctor. It’s easier said than done bc health anxiety gives you the false sense of control. It’s not easy to let that go. But you can. I ended up being able to while pregnant. It helped me to look at it as my gift to my unborn child - and my duty as a mom. To trust the Dr. even when I wanted so badly to question/push for tests/etc. it was a daily exercise in letting go. You can do it!! Do you have a therapist to help?