IreneRumi
12-07-18, 18:17
I had a really good month and a half - REALLY good actually, as my now-fiance and I managed a whole 1.5 week trip to Scotland, where he proposed! I managed the trip so much better than I expected, with tons of walking, socializing, plane rides, and normal travel stress. We also had a busy month with two more weddings back home, and lots of socializing and physical activity like biking and swimming. The morning nausea seemed a thing of the past as I started just having smoothies for breakfast and eating more food later in the day.
However, this week has been increasing difficult leading to me throwing up this morning (mostly bile/acid and one spoonful of oatmeal). I was anxious starting Sunday night, and felt queasy every day, eating small meals and trying to get enough food. I felt so upset on Tuesday after work that I looked up a counselor and made an appointment for next Tuesday. I felt emotional and teary every day Monday through Wednesday, as well as headachey, lots of tension in my shoulders and neck, lots of queasiness and stomach upset, and weird tingling and twitching in my arms and legs and torso. I felt like I was doing so well for a while that its so upsetting to have this happen again. :(
My fear of course is that this is not anxiety but something more. I have had these symptoms (the nausea and vomiting being the worst) off and on since October when I had my first scary panic attack (or was it??!). I just want to enjoy eating and doing normal things. I dont know why Im so upset this week - my birthday is tomorrow and I just want to be happy and relaxed. My fiance has been so wonderful and loving, and I just want to be a good partner.
Any advice for the long term anxiety struggle? I dont want to go on medication. I know I need to have a better diet (mostly able to get down sugar and carbs right now). Ive tried meditation and yoga, and exercising more. I just feel so anxious about my health even though I appear to be a healthy 25/26 year old in the doctors perspective. Im terrified of having a stroke (my biggest fear), or being unable to eat. I'm scared that something happen to my brain or vagus nerve or heart (Ive had an MRI, EKG, EEG, blood tests) that is causing the nausea.
However, this week has been increasing difficult leading to me throwing up this morning (mostly bile/acid and one spoonful of oatmeal). I was anxious starting Sunday night, and felt queasy every day, eating small meals and trying to get enough food. I felt so upset on Tuesday after work that I looked up a counselor and made an appointment for next Tuesday. I felt emotional and teary every day Monday through Wednesday, as well as headachey, lots of tension in my shoulders and neck, lots of queasiness and stomach upset, and weird tingling and twitching in my arms and legs and torso. I felt like I was doing so well for a while that its so upsetting to have this happen again. :(
My fear of course is that this is not anxiety but something more. I have had these symptoms (the nausea and vomiting being the worst) off and on since October when I had my first scary panic attack (or was it??!). I just want to enjoy eating and doing normal things. I dont know why Im so upset this week - my birthday is tomorrow and I just want to be happy and relaxed. My fiance has been so wonderful and loving, and I just want to be a good partner.
Any advice for the long term anxiety struggle? I dont want to go on medication. I know I need to have a better diet (mostly able to get down sugar and carbs right now). Ive tried meditation and yoga, and exercising more. I just feel so anxious about my health even though I appear to be a healthy 25/26 year old in the doctors perspective. Im terrified of having a stroke (my biggest fear), or being unable to eat. I'm scared that something happen to my brain or vagus nerve or heart (Ive had an MRI, EKG, EEG, blood tests) that is causing the nausea.