nbs1
01-08-07, 08:44
my anxiety/p.a's usually concern my chest and heart. they have been a lot better since i came back from holiday with my g/f and i even managed to play tennis a few times and do light gym sessions.
however after a heavy saturday in the pub, i felt awful on sunday and mon. i still tried to go back to football trainin on mon night for the first time in 6months. it was a disaster. i had to stop 10 mins in as my chest was so sore. my anxiety was awful and i gave up straight away, worried that if i continued summin bad would happen.
this then led to another awful day at work yest(work always used to be a trigger for feelin awful). i feel like my shirt is closing in on my chest and spend the whole day with a hand putting pressure on my chest. then in the car home wiv my g/f i was holding my seatbelt away from my chest(again when im anxious i feel like it is closing in on my chest). i accidentaly let it go and it hit my chest. something horrible happened and for a few split seconds something felt like it was squeezing in my chest. my g/f got a real fright cos i jumped and my face/lips went white as a ghost.
are all these feelings normal and can the whiteness simply be explained by the fact i got such a shock/fright????
ive been getting so much better and the last 3 days have felt like such a backward step. i got really down for a wee bit last night, but with help managed to pick myself up again. its just so frustrating when it feels like your taking 1 step forward, 2 steps back!
my next step is to try to go tee-total for a while and see if that helps. not gonna be easy tho!!
however after a heavy saturday in the pub, i felt awful on sunday and mon. i still tried to go back to football trainin on mon night for the first time in 6months. it was a disaster. i had to stop 10 mins in as my chest was so sore. my anxiety was awful and i gave up straight away, worried that if i continued summin bad would happen.
this then led to another awful day at work yest(work always used to be a trigger for feelin awful). i feel like my shirt is closing in on my chest and spend the whole day with a hand putting pressure on my chest. then in the car home wiv my g/f i was holding my seatbelt away from my chest(again when im anxious i feel like it is closing in on my chest). i accidentaly let it go and it hit my chest. something horrible happened and for a few split seconds something felt like it was squeezing in my chest. my g/f got a real fright cos i jumped and my face/lips went white as a ghost.
are all these feelings normal and can the whiteness simply be explained by the fact i got such a shock/fright????
ive been getting so much better and the last 3 days have felt like such a backward step. i got really down for a wee bit last night, but with help managed to pick myself up again. its just so frustrating when it feels like your taking 1 step forward, 2 steps back!
my next step is to try to go tee-total for a while and see if that helps. not gonna be easy tho!!