Ollie12
08-08-07, 10:37
Hi Everyone.
This is the first time i've posted about the problems i'm suffering but i'd like to hear from people who may have experienced the same as me and come out the other side.
I have suffered from Anxiety and Panic for around 4 years now and had two major episodes during that time both of which i started to recover from. As soon as i would start to recover i would go down the same path of going out and drinking and partying with the eventual outcome being a relapse of the most severe anxiety symptoms. The problem i have is i use alcohol as a way of escaping from the feelings even though i know that the day after i will feel so dreadfully ill.
Yet again i went out on the weekend and drank too much leaving me with a whole host of problems including a lost phone, a bang on my head and a black out period where i lost all my friends. I have no recollection of any of this happening and when i woke up the next day i felt awful and the panic of what had happened to me started to set in. This got really bad and i decided that i needed to come clean with my girlfriend and family. I have booked into an aa meeting to deal with my drinking which causes all the problems in my life. Over the last few days though i have been trying to work out what happened to me when i was out and i am having thoughts that i was beaten up or have died and that i'm in some sort of afterlife now, even though nothing has changed. This is really worrying me and the symptoms i am getting are becoming worse and worse. I have been through exactly the same thing before but i can't get my head around it. Is there anyone who can offer some advice or who has also had this problem and worked through it? At the moment all i can think of is that my life has been lost somewhere - utter confusion.
I just want to finally get my problems in life sorted out and make my family proud of me again.
Thanks
Ollie
This is the first time i've posted about the problems i'm suffering but i'd like to hear from people who may have experienced the same as me and come out the other side.
I have suffered from Anxiety and Panic for around 4 years now and had two major episodes during that time both of which i started to recover from. As soon as i would start to recover i would go down the same path of going out and drinking and partying with the eventual outcome being a relapse of the most severe anxiety symptoms. The problem i have is i use alcohol as a way of escaping from the feelings even though i know that the day after i will feel so dreadfully ill.
Yet again i went out on the weekend and drank too much leaving me with a whole host of problems including a lost phone, a bang on my head and a black out period where i lost all my friends. I have no recollection of any of this happening and when i woke up the next day i felt awful and the panic of what had happened to me started to set in. This got really bad and i decided that i needed to come clean with my girlfriend and family. I have booked into an aa meeting to deal with my drinking which causes all the problems in my life. Over the last few days though i have been trying to work out what happened to me when i was out and i am having thoughts that i was beaten up or have died and that i'm in some sort of afterlife now, even though nothing has changed. This is really worrying me and the symptoms i am getting are becoming worse and worse. I have been through exactly the same thing before but i can't get my head around it. Is there anyone who can offer some advice or who has also had this problem and worked through it? At the moment all i can think of is that my life has been lost somewhere - utter confusion.
I just want to finally get my problems in life sorted out and make my family proud of me again.
Thanks
Ollie