Deep Blue
28-07-18, 15:54
Survived the worst panic attack of my life on Wednesday & still feel shattered. So very scared of another one.
What triggered it? Got my appointment letter for surgery. Had explained about my GAD & panic & surgeon agreed I'd have an early appointment as the later in the day the longer the panic & anxiety has to build.
Opened the letter, read 4pm admission & instantly went into meltdown.
Gasping for breath. Invisible elephant stood on my chest. Legs turned to rubber & wouldn't support me. Vision blurred. Pulled out handfuls of hair.
Pre op assessment on Monday. Surgery not until the 8th.
How do I get through it?
I am on the verge of cabelling the surgery.
I have visions of panicing and running through the hospital in my surgical gown
Arrgh!
What triggered it? Got my appointment letter for surgery. Had explained about my GAD & panic & surgeon agreed I'd have an early appointment as the later in the day the longer the panic & anxiety has to build.
Opened the letter, read 4pm admission & instantly went into meltdown.
Gasping for breath. Invisible elephant stood on my chest. Legs turned to rubber & wouldn't support me. Vision blurred. Pulled out handfuls of hair.
Pre op assessment on Monday. Surgery not until the 8th.
How do I get through it?
I am on the verge of cabelling the surgery.
I have visions of panicing and running through the hospital in my surgical gown
Arrgh!