Abs76
03-08-18, 08:42
Morning,
I’ve had anxiety my whole life mainly around social situations which I’ve always got on with. I had some help 16 years ago when a spell of bad personal events left me in a complete state with daily anxiety attacks and OCD. Things got better with medication but in the last three years I have developed an anxiety around being away from home. One night away with my husband from our three teenage boys left me with a three hour anxiety attack. This was the catalyst and since then every holiday I have cut short due to anxiety symptoms; evening shakes, no appetite and just wanting to go home. Each time one of my sons hasn’t come away with us.
Last year we all went to Portugal and the night before I was in a state, I called No Panic’s helpline and spoke to a lovely lady, between her, my Dad and my husband they all convinced me to go and I had the best time, even booking a return holiday while we were still there. In May I cancelled a week’s holiday to Cornwall as lots of things went wrong beforehand and none of our sons wanted to come away. We are now a week away from our nine day holiday to Portugal (without our eldest) and I have been in an anxiety state for over a week; upset stomach, constant negative thoughts. I have been to my GP and I’m going to start CBT next week which I’ve never had before. However my husband wants to cancel the holiday. I felt relief when he said that but I feel like the worst parent ever for doing this to them but I just can’t face going. Does anyone have any experience of this type of anxiety?
Thank you
I’ve had anxiety my whole life mainly around social situations which I’ve always got on with. I had some help 16 years ago when a spell of bad personal events left me in a complete state with daily anxiety attacks and OCD. Things got better with medication but in the last three years I have developed an anxiety around being away from home. One night away with my husband from our three teenage boys left me with a three hour anxiety attack. This was the catalyst and since then every holiday I have cut short due to anxiety symptoms; evening shakes, no appetite and just wanting to go home. Each time one of my sons hasn’t come away with us.
Last year we all went to Portugal and the night before I was in a state, I called No Panic’s helpline and spoke to a lovely lady, between her, my Dad and my husband they all convinced me to go and I had the best time, even booking a return holiday while we were still there. In May I cancelled a week’s holiday to Cornwall as lots of things went wrong beforehand and none of our sons wanted to come away. We are now a week away from our nine day holiday to Portugal (without our eldest) and I have been in an anxiety state for over a week; upset stomach, constant negative thoughts. I have been to my GP and I’m going to start CBT next week which I’ve never had before. However my husband wants to cancel the holiday. I felt relief when he said that but I feel like the worst parent ever for doing this to them but I just can’t face going. Does anyone have any experience of this type of anxiety?
Thank you