clickaway
13-08-07, 19:40
Hi there
Just updating you on my progress, so here goes!
Since I’ve been on my anti-depressants (Citalopram) my various pains have receded and enabled me to get out more – I have posted here previously about odd trips to London etc. However, I now seem to feel more tired and over the last two to three weeks my insomnia has been really troublesome – often not nodding off til 4 or 5 and sleeping during the morning.
I’ve also noticed that I get back pain after walking out for 10 to 15 minutes. However, I have noticed that I don’t get this at all if I’m with others, even if I’m out for several hours with a camera bag on my shoulder! So I’ve concluded this to be a symptom of separation anxiety, although I’m thinking my back can’t be great!
And since I have Separation Anxiety and have never had a natural gift in making friends, I’ve been attempting to rectify this as much as I can, which is difficult when you have anxiety and can’t easily commit to socialising because of how you feel. So I joined a photography group last year which is informal and sociable. This crowd meet up in pubs, rather than sit in a boring meeting hall looking at other peoples pictures and talking all technical. After 10 months of being a silent member, I eventually joined this bunch of strangers on Saturday up in London. I was made to feel very welcome and I didn’t feel the need to admit that I had anxiety at all! I really like it when you can appear to be normal on the outside!
Of course, I felt whacked the day after, but there again I’ve been fragile lately as today marks two years since my mum died – my brother and I went to the crematorium earlier today.
Another positive is that I now have a new co-facilitator to help my run self-help group here in Woking. She is a young psychologist and is very keen travelling up from Gosport for the sessions. This arrangement is taking the pressure off me, and we now have a regular clientele and I see the group getting stronger.
Oh well, I seem to have written quite a lot, so I’ll sign off now and let you get on!
Just updating you on my progress, so here goes!
Since I’ve been on my anti-depressants (Citalopram) my various pains have receded and enabled me to get out more – I have posted here previously about odd trips to London etc. However, I now seem to feel more tired and over the last two to three weeks my insomnia has been really troublesome – often not nodding off til 4 or 5 and sleeping during the morning.
I’ve also noticed that I get back pain after walking out for 10 to 15 minutes. However, I have noticed that I don’t get this at all if I’m with others, even if I’m out for several hours with a camera bag on my shoulder! So I’ve concluded this to be a symptom of separation anxiety, although I’m thinking my back can’t be great!
And since I have Separation Anxiety and have never had a natural gift in making friends, I’ve been attempting to rectify this as much as I can, which is difficult when you have anxiety and can’t easily commit to socialising because of how you feel. So I joined a photography group last year which is informal and sociable. This crowd meet up in pubs, rather than sit in a boring meeting hall looking at other peoples pictures and talking all technical. After 10 months of being a silent member, I eventually joined this bunch of strangers on Saturday up in London. I was made to feel very welcome and I didn’t feel the need to admit that I had anxiety at all! I really like it when you can appear to be normal on the outside!
Of course, I felt whacked the day after, but there again I’ve been fragile lately as today marks two years since my mum died – my brother and I went to the crematorium earlier today.
Another positive is that I now have a new co-facilitator to help my run self-help group here in Woking. She is a young psychologist and is very keen travelling up from Gosport for the sessions. This arrangement is taking the pressure off me, and we now have a regular clientele and I see the group getting stronger.
Oh well, I seem to have written quite a lot, so I’ll sign off now and let you get on!