Worrygirl32
08-08-18, 02:35
I know this is long, but please please read it. Thank you.
I had conquered this fear once before years ago, but I feel like recently it has spiraled out of control beyond all reasoning. So it started about 2 months ago, I casually would start thinking I was allergic to stuff. For example, my daughter has those red hi-c juice boxes. I had one and I immediately started to cough.. So I assumed I was allergic to the red food coloring. Another example, the frozen pops I have eaten them my entire life, but recently I noticed that when I eat one I start to cough randomly throughout.. now before anyone says I am making it up.. I have always coughed when I ate those but I just now tied it with allergic reaction. I asked my husband and my daughter those don't make them cough. Again these are all at different times.. I have been extremely passive with this anxiety fear, so I am sure over time my fear has increased.
More recently I started eating quinoa. Last year I would randomly start getting the feeling of a lump in my throat. I attributed it to the stress of college. The lump in my throat would happen totally random.. Sometimes during the day, sometimes at night, sometimes after eating. I couldn't pinpoint a cause because the episodes were sporadic. So I made an intelligent guess and chucked it up to anxiety and or heartburn.. Well about 3 months ago I made a dish with quinoa.. and after I ate I had that feeling in my throat.. the lump.. and I didn't think twice about it.. I figured somehow someway it might have caused some acid reflux.. I made some meal prep recently and I made quinoa.. after eating quinoa the throat thing happened.. I attributed it to anxiety and didn't think anything of it. The next day for lunch I had quinoa again (obivously) since I meal prepped it and my throat started to feel tight AGAIN. At this point I thought maybe I am slightly allergic to quinoa.. and from there the snowball affect took place
I have really bad hay fever and because of that when I eat certain raw fruits and vegetables my throat itches. I have had this my entire life. I have never seen an allergist I just figured it was apart of life. However, if you cook the vegetables its fine and doesnt bother me. I know this is weird but thats just how it is. Well after googling I found out that quinoa is a seed that belongs in some pollen family. At this point anxiety completed sky rocketed... and for the past few days I have had this overwhelming fear of going into anaphylaxis. Because I exposed myself numerous times to the quinoa like an idiot. I am scared that I will have a cross-reaction with something else and go into anaphylaxis. I know this sounds crazy but its driving me insane. Now when I eat something I get that globus sensation... and I get paranoid all over again.
It is a really struggle for me and makes me slightly depressed I am a nursing student so I know how important it is to be healthy and I genuinely want to be but I have been avoiding all healthy foods just in case I go into anaphylaxis.
For example, growing up I used to eat strawberries, bananas, and now I am terrified to eat it. Part of this has been made worse by the internet. I read that sometimes people who have oral allergy syndrome can progress to anaphylaxis.. I just need someone to try to reason with me and put things in a different perspective. This is not a healthy way to live.
I had conquered this fear once before years ago, but I feel like recently it has spiraled out of control beyond all reasoning. So it started about 2 months ago, I casually would start thinking I was allergic to stuff. For example, my daughter has those red hi-c juice boxes. I had one and I immediately started to cough.. So I assumed I was allergic to the red food coloring. Another example, the frozen pops I have eaten them my entire life, but recently I noticed that when I eat one I start to cough randomly throughout.. now before anyone says I am making it up.. I have always coughed when I ate those but I just now tied it with allergic reaction. I asked my husband and my daughter those don't make them cough. Again these are all at different times.. I have been extremely passive with this anxiety fear, so I am sure over time my fear has increased.
More recently I started eating quinoa. Last year I would randomly start getting the feeling of a lump in my throat. I attributed it to the stress of college. The lump in my throat would happen totally random.. Sometimes during the day, sometimes at night, sometimes after eating. I couldn't pinpoint a cause because the episodes were sporadic. So I made an intelligent guess and chucked it up to anxiety and or heartburn.. Well about 3 months ago I made a dish with quinoa.. and after I ate I had that feeling in my throat.. the lump.. and I didn't think twice about it.. I figured somehow someway it might have caused some acid reflux.. I made some meal prep recently and I made quinoa.. after eating quinoa the throat thing happened.. I attributed it to anxiety and didn't think anything of it. The next day for lunch I had quinoa again (obivously) since I meal prepped it and my throat started to feel tight AGAIN. At this point I thought maybe I am slightly allergic to quinoa.. and from there the snowball affect took place
I have really bad hay fever and because of that when I eat certain raw fruits and vegetables my throat itches. I have had this my entire life. I have never seen an allergist I just figured it was apart of life. However, if you cook the vegetables its fine and doesnt bother me. I know this is weird but thats just how it is. Well after googling I found out that quinoa is a seed that belongs in some pollen family. At this point anxiety completed sky rocketed... and for the past few days I have had this overwhelming fear of going into anaphylaxis. Because I exposed myself numerous times to the quinoa like an idiot. I am scared that I will have a cross-reaction with something else and go into anaphylaxis. I know this sounds crazy but its driving me insane. Now when I eat something I get that globus sensation... and I get paranoid all over again.
It is a really struggle for me and makes me slightly depressed I am a nursing student so I know how important it is to be healthy and I genuinely want to be but I have been avoiding all healthy foods just in case I go into anaphylaxis.
For example, growing up I used to eat strawberries, bananas, and now I am terrified to eat it. Part of this has been made worse by the internet. I read that sometimes people who have oral allergy syndrome can progress to anaphylaxis.. I just need someone to try to reason with me and put things in a different perspective. This is not a healthy way to live.