coastgirl
22-08-18, 22:54
Struggling now. I am a bit overdue for my full body skin exam but I just contacted to make the appointment. I have been procrastinating going as it gives me a LOT of anxiety.
I had a basal cell on my nose (likely from all the surfing I do) and it freaked me out so much and sent me into a tailspin.
Been back to the derm since then but they always want to biopsy something and it wrecks me for a week straight until I get the results.
Since I had one bad result with the basal cell I am petrified now as my fears have been confirmed so to speak.
I have a lot of odd moles (one derm said that's just how my body makes moles) and I keep an eye on them, but sometimes I'll hyper focus on one and worry about it. I'm worried about one on my back now that I think has been there for a while but suddenly my mind is wondering if it was always that big. It's evenly round and light brown evenly colored but it's just large and kind of raised. It doesn't trip any of the ABDCE's except size, it's probably about 6mm.
I have some really strange ones that I'm not worried about. But then others will worry me!
I have to go to the derm eventually. Just posting here to vent. It's so, so scary for me. Even looking up doctors to make the appt (I have to change docs because of an insurance change) has made me extremely anxious and light headed.
I had a basal cell on my nose (likely from all the surfing I do) and it freaked me out so much and sent me into a tailspin.
Been back to the derm since then but they always want to biopsy something and it wrecks me for a week straight until I get the results.
Since I had one bad result with the basal cell I am petrified now as my fears have been confirmed so to speak.
I have a lot of odd moles (one derm said that's just how my body makes moles) and I keep an eye on them, but sometimes I'll hyper focus on one and worry about it. I'm worried about one on my back now that I think has been there for a while but suddenly my mind is wondering if it was always that big. It's evenly round and light brown evenly colored but it's just large and kind of raised. It doesn't trip any of the ABDCE's except size, it's probably about 6mm.
I have some really strange ones that I'm not worried about. But then others will worry me!
I have to go to the derm eventually. Just posting here to vent. It's so, so scary for me. Even looking up doctors to make the appt (I have to change docs because of an insurance change) has made me extremely anxious and light headed.