cox1981
16-08-07, 13:33
Hi. I would like to introduce myself to this forum. I am 26 years old and I am suffering from Panic Disorder.
Yesterday my doctor prescribed me fluoxetine after I told her how I had my first panic attack in March. It seemed to be a result of a number of things when I had my first one. I had taken on the ambitious project of rennovating a house with a friend, I had just taken a new job. This was coupled with the fact that my car had broken down so I had sold it and got a new car but after a few weeks this had serious problems which no matter how much money I throw at it don't ever seem to go away. In the weeks leading up to the panic attack feelings of low self esteem that have plagued me ever since I was young resurfaced.
Since march the attacks have continued as I can't escape the stress of rennovating the house. I can't put it on hold until I feel better as other people are involved (renting out rooms etc.) My car continues to fault and I constantly mess up things with my girlfriend which I know makes her feel as though I don't care.
Whenever I am worrying about my car or money in the lead up to an attack I feel as though I want to die and for a few moments my thoughts turn to self-harm. I also feel that I took up smoking BECAUSE it was bad for me rather than to relieve stress.
In many ways I want to relieve myself of my panic attacks more for other peoples sake than my own. I wish that my girlfriend and I could have a happier relationship without my stresses. I really want to be able to have a normal disagreements without me panicking and throwing up. I would like to feel more like a man and be there for her rather than have her look after me all the time. And I want to be able to work on the house project for more for the other people that live in it than myself.
I actually feel much better for putting my thoughts down.
Yesterday my doctor prescribed me fluoxetine after I told her how I had my first panic attack in March. It seemed to be a result of a number of things when I had my first one. I had taken on the ambitious project of rennovating a house with a friend, I had just taken a new job. This was coupled with the fact that my car had broken down so I had sold it and got a new car but after a few weeks this had serious problems which no matter how much money I throw at it don't ever seem to go away. In the weeks leading up to the panic attack feelings of low self esteem that have plagued me ever since I was young resurfaced.
Since march the attacks have continued as I can't escape the stress of rennovating the house. I can't put it on hold until I feel better as other people are involved (renting out rooms etc.) My car continues to fault and I constantly mess up things with my girlfriend which I know makes her feel as though I don't care.
Whenever I am worrying about my car or money in the lead up to an attack I feel as though I want to die and for a few moments my thoughts turn to self-harm. I also feel that I took up smoking BECAUSE it was bad for me rather than to relieve stress.
In many ways I want to relieve myself of my panic attacks more for other peoples sake than my own. I wish that my girlfriend and I could have a happier relationship without my stresses. I really want to be able to have a normal disagreements without me panicking and throwing up. I would like to feel more like a man and be there for her rather than have her look after me all the time. And I want to be able to work on the house project for more for the other people that live in it than myself.
I actually feel much better for putting my thoughts down.