LouiseAndy
27-08-18, 01:46
So, basically I've been fighting health anxiety for the last year or so. I've gotten more most of my fears and issues...but this one won't shit. So please try and help me to understand this.
On the right side of my face is the main issue. It's mainly around my ear/jaw/cheek area. I keep getting this strange like fullness and pressure feeling in my ear that feels like it's spreads to my cheek and jaw. It also effect the shell, the outer drum of my ear. It feels swore. The whole area's I've listed are tender to push at. The worse area to touch tend to be the area just in front of my ear lobe and behind my ear. Like it hurts worse when I move my jaw...my ear pops a lot.
I could sit here and type all day about how strange and off putting it is. It's so distressing and I want to cry a lot whenever I think about it.
Tonight I tried using a like push water spray to help clear it out. It's been going on for months and I've used it a few times. I don't know if I was tense or something but I sudden got very dizzy while using it. Of course I panic and that made it worse!
I've gotten over/dealt with the rest of my anxiety or actually health issues. This thing has been with me for so long. Back on my birthday (1st July) I had already been dealing with this for awhile and broke down and went to urgent care. He looked into my ears, felt around a few places. Got me to open and close my jaw while he felt around. He said he didn't see any issues. My doctor has looked into my ears before. No one seems to notice anything but this is driving me crazy.
I think since a lot of my other worries have been solved this is my new drama of the day. I just want to move on. I don't want to go crying to the doctor about something I don't even know how to explain. My mind goes all over the place, to all sinister issues like cancers, tumors, some type of deadly infection etc. I've manged to stay away from google but the mind fills it all in
Like I've tried to reason with myself like I have done on other issues. This just seems to be like the last step. I wish I could move forward from this. I'm in therapy already. I tried taking meds before but I had issues with taking them and my gp decided that intensive therapy would be the best type of action for me.
I'm just scared I guess, that this is the last issues but it will end me. I'm bawling crying as I write this (There is some other personal issues as well, so it's been a hard day). I'm scared to go back to the doctor incase this starts more issues. Most my reports have been finished and I made peace with them yet this won't leave me be.
Sorry for the long post, I just need to vent and someone to give me a finally kick up the ass about this.
On the right side of my face is the main issue. It's mainly around my ear/jaw/cheek area. I keep getting this strange like fullness and pressure feeling in my ear that feels like it's spreads to my cheek and jaw. It also effect the shell, the outer drum of my ear. It feels swore. The whole area's I've listed are tender to push at. The worse area to touch tend to be the area just in front of my ear lobe and behind my ear. Like it hurts worse when I move my jaw...my ear pops a lot.
I could sit here and type all day about how strange and off putting it is. It's so distressing and I want to cry a lot whenever I think about it.
Tonight I tried using a like push water spray to help clear it out. It's been going on for months and I've used it a few times. I don't know if I was tense or something but I sudden got very dizzy while using it. Of course I panic and that made it worse!
I've gotten over/dealt with the rest of my anxiety or actually health issues. This thing has been with me for so long. Back on my birthday (1st July) I had already been dealing with this for awhile and broke down and went to urgent care. He looked into my ears, felt around a few places. Got me to open and close my jaw while he felt around. He said he didn't see any issues. My doctor has looked into my ears before. No one seems to notice anything but this is driving me crazy.
I think since a lot of my other worries have been solved this is my new drama of the day. I just want to move on. I don't want to go crying to the doctor about something I don't even know how to explain. My mind goes all over the place, to all sinister issues like cancers, tumors, some type of deadly infection etc. I've manged to stay away from google but the mind fills it all in
Like I've tried to reason with myself like I have done on other issues. This just seems to be like the last step. I wish I could move forward from this. I'm in therapy already. I tried taking meds before but I had issues with taking them and my gp decided that intensive therapy would be the best type of action for me.
I'm just scared I guess, that this is the last issues but it will end me. I'm bawling crying as I write this (There is some other personal issues as well, so it's been a hard day). I'm scared to go back to the doctor incase this starts more issues. Most my reports have been finished and I made peace with them yet this won't leave me be.
Sorry for the long post, I just need to vent and someone to give me a finally kick up the ass about this.