elle95
28-08-18, 22:11
Sorry for moaning and for the long post.
It all started with a vaginal boil I got around mid june this year. I get them but they always go away on their own but this one was different. I accidentally squeezed it and it bled a lot. So I left it, didn't use any antibiotics nor went to a doctor, I just left it. It got terribly wollen and very painful - I couldn't even move my legs due to the pain. So a couple of weeks passed and the boil hadn't healed and I started worrying about getting mrsa, pneumonia and sepsis. I would my check my temperature, breathing and skin everytime to look for signs of sepsis. And then I started reading about people who got/died of sepsis. Since I'm off school I am very sedentary and I spend most of my day on bed using my phone, and then onr night I moved to my side and I felt this quick weird lower back pain like an electric shock also in the middle of my stomach. Don't know why but when I first felt that pain I just said: Ok now this must be cancer.
Days passed and the boil didn't improve, it just kept draining pus and I was so worried the infection would spread because It would be a month with the boil without healing. So in mid july I started getting a constant/persistent lower back pain like when I have my period, upper back pain like something is bitting me or stinging, it feels so deep and leaves me breathless. I also started getting sharp pains all over my body, and terrible left leg pain and buttock pain, also my knee and right leg hurt occassionally. But the pain that worries me the most is the lower back one and the left buttock and left leg one. It's sometimes a shooting deep pain, and my buttock and thigh can feel warm to touch sometimes. It feels so deep like something is consuming me. Also two months ago i developed a constant annoying phlegm in my throat. And the last one sign is that since a couple of days ago when I sit and move I can feel something in the middle of my buttocks like near the anus or something like a bony/hard moveable lump.
Of course I googled all of my symptoms and well there are many possible things but I just convinced myself I could have these three cancers:
Ovarian cancer
Bone cancer osteosarcoma in my pelvis or hip with lung metastasis (the phlegm has me convinced of that)
Soft tissue sarcoma
Last month I had an abdominal ultrasound which showed a kidney stone in my right kidney, but don't why my pain is mainly on my left side. I also have a uti but I didn't take the cipro, cause I was scared of the side effects.
I'm 22 years old which is in the age range of getting sarcoma and I'm terrified I have it now. Also I'm hispanic/afrocaribbean descent which supposedly have a high incidence of osteosarcoma. I go back to uni next week and I don't have the energy to go, my appetite has decreased because I think I'm terminal and have little time left. The last month my google searches are almost 99% of cancer searches like sarcoma, osteosarcoma, prognosis, incidence, stories of people with it etc. It makes me crazy. I want to be positive but this doesn't help. I'm very irritable rn and talk bad to my family, I feel frustrated :( I'm waiting to go to a gynecologist this friday, I'm so scared to go to the doctor but I guess I gotta face this :(
It all started with a vaginal boil I got around mid june this year. I get them but they always go away on their own but this one was different. I accidentally squeezed it and it bled a lot. So I left it, didn't use any antibiotics nor went to a doctor, I just left it. It got terribly wollen and very painful - I couldn't even move my legs due to the pain. So a couple of weeks passed and the boil hadn't healed and I started worrying about getting mrsa, pneumonia and sepsis. I would my check my temperature, breathing and skin everytime to look for signs of sepsis. And then I started reading about people who got/died of sepsis. Since I'm off school I am very sedentary and I spend most of my day on bed using my phone, and then onr night I moved to my side and I felt this quick weird lower back pain like an electric shock also in the middle of my stomach. Don't know why but when I first felt that pain I just said: Ok now this must be cancer.
Days passed and the boil didn't improve, it just kept draining pus and I was so worried the infection would spread because It would be a month with the boil without healing. So in mid july I started getting a constant/persistent lower back pain like when I have my period, upper back pain like something is bitting me or stinging, it feels so deep and leaves me breathless. I also started getting sharp pains all over my body, and terrible left leg pain and buttock pain, also my knee and right leg hurt occassionally. But the pain that worries me the most is the lower back one and the left buttock and left leg one. It's sometimes a shooting deep pain, and my buttock and thigh can feel warm to touch sometimes. It feels so deep like something is consuming me. Also two months ago i developed a constant annoying phlegm in my throat. And the last one sign is that since a couple of days ago when I sit and move I can feel something in the middle of my buttocks like near the anus or something like a bony/hard moveable lump.
Of course I googled all of my symptoms and well there are many possible things but I just convinced myself I could have these three cancers:
Ovarian cancer
Bone cancer osteosarcoma in my pelvis or hip with lung metastasis (the phlegm has me convinced of that)
Soft tissue sarcoma
Last month I had an abdominal ultrasound which showed a kidney stone in my right kidney, but don't why my pain is mainly on my left side. I also have a uti but I didn't take the cipro, cause I was scared of the side effects.
I'm 22 years old which is in the age range of getting sarcoma and I'm terrified I have it now. Also I'm hispanic/afrocaribbean descent which supposedly have a high incidence of osteosarcoma. I go back to uni next week and I don't have the energy to go, my appetite has decreased because I think I'm terminal and have little time left. The last month my google searches are almost 99% of cancer searches like sarcoma, osteosarcoma, prognosis, incidence, stories of people with it etc. It makes me crazy. I want to be positive but this doesn't help. I'm very irritable rn and talk bad to my family, I feel frustrated :( I'm waiting to go to a gynecologist this friday, I'm so scared to go to the doctor but I guess I gotta face this :(