AnxietyMrs
04-09-18, 04:40
Hi all! Its been so long since I have been here and I really thought I was done for good. My anxiety has been great and I've felt so free!
So back to why I'm here. About 2 months ago, my dad had what looked like a blood blister on his foot. He had it removed and biopsied. Stage 2 Melanoma. After further testing, the Melanoma has spread to the lymphnodes in his groin. Making it now stage 3A. He has a CT Scan Wednesday to see if it has spread further. Which would change his staging as well as his treatment plan.
And me? I just feel sick. I feel guilty finding happiness in anything when my dad is facing such daunting demons. And of course, given my background in anxiety, I'm looking at the worst possible scenario. All I keep thinking is how I would possibly live in a world without my dad in it.
I'm not really looking for advice. Frankly, I'm not sure what I'm looking for. I guess I just wanted to vent to people who get me. And maybe someone out there can relate.
Hope you all are getting along fine 😊
So back to why I'm here. About 2 months ago, my dad had what looked like a blood blister on his foot. He had it removed and biopsied. Stage 2 Melanoma. After further testing, the Melanoma has spread to the lymphnodes in his groin. Making it now stage 3A. He has a CT Scan Wednesday to see if it has spread further. Which would change his staging as well as his treatment plan.
And me? I just feel sick. I feel guilty finding happiness in anything when my dad is facing such daunting demons. And of course, given my background in anxiety, I'm looking at the worst possible scenario. All I keep thinking is how I would possibly live in a world without my dad in it.
I'm not really looking for advice. Frankly, I'm not sure what I'm looking for. I guess I just wanted to vent to people who get me. And maybe someone out there can relate.
Hope you all are getting along fine 😊