ktdid2000
04-09-18, 17:37
Hi all,
I've been doing so much better with my HA lately but for some reason this month (work stress, travel, neighbor stress, etc.) I started panicking about different moles on my body. I don't have that many, and almost all of the ones I do have are a little "weird".
Anyway, I started fixating on one that bothered me the most because of its "weirdness". Its about 2-3 shades of brown/tan and has a few black specs in it. Irregular borders. It's in my belly button of all places. I think it's congential because I only found it after I had my son 6 years ago and he made my belly button pop out. I had one other congential mole removed when I was 6 years old because it was huge (about 2-3 inches).
I went to the derm in a panic about it almost 2 weeks ago and she took a look and said it didn't look like anything suspicious to her but watch for changes. Well in my panic I wasn't having any of it so I had her take it off, mostly because she suggested we could and she could tell I was being nuts about it.
Before I left I asked her if I should be worried and she said no, and even if it was something it was so small (4 mm) that it would be totally gone from the biopsy alone. AND something about "the way it came out she wasn't worried about it" - whatever that means!
It's now been almost 2 weeks and I was supposed to have results in 7-10 days. I seriously cannot take all this waiting. I've called the office and harassed them about it and I think they finally have the results but can't release them to me yet until the doc reads them. ARGH.
My mind says it's nothing but is also consumed with the what-ifs and all sorts of catastrophic thinking. I went from being panicked about something that's been in my belly button unchanged for at least 3 years, probably longer to having it cut out and glad its gone to thinking I'm going to get a cancer sentence any minute now.
Just figured I would reach out to people who have been through something similar. I've always been told "no news is good news" but sometimes you just need to HEAR the good news to believe it!!
I've been doing so much better with my HA lately but for some reason this month (work stress, travel, neighbor stress, etc.) I started panicking about different moles on my body. I don't have that many, and almost all of the ones I do have are a little "weird".
Anyway, I started fixating on one that bothered me the most because of its "weirdness". Its about 2-3 shades of brown/tan and has a few black specs in it. Irregular borders. It's in my belly button of all places. I think it's congential because I only found it after I had my son 6 years ago and he made my belly button pop out. I had one other congential mole removed when I was 6 years old because it was huge (about 2-3 inches).
I went to the derm in a panic about it almost 2 weeks ago and she took a look and said it didn't look like anything suspicious to her but watch for changes. Well in my panic I wasn't having any of it so I had her take it off, mostly because she suggested we could and she could tell I was being nuts about it.
Before I left I asked her if I should be worried and she said no, and even if it was something it was so small (4 mm) that it would be totally gone from the biopsy alone. AND something about "the way it came out she wasn't worried about it" - whatever that means!
It's now been almost 2 weeks and I was supposed to have results in 7-10 days. I seriously cannot take all this waiting. I've called the office and harassed them about it and I think they finally have the results but can't release them to me yet until the doc reads them. ARGH.
My mind says it's nothing but is also consumed with the what-ifs and all sorts of catastrophic thinking. I went from being panicked about something that's been in my belly button unchanged for at least 3 years, probably longer to having it cut out and glad its gone to thinking I'm going to get a cancer sentence any minute now.
Just figured I would reach out to people who have been through something similar. I've always been told "no news is good news" but sometimes you just need to HEAR the good news to believe it!!