girlrock
05-09-18, 01:01
It’s been a few months since I’ve posted about anything. I got over my stomach cancer fear after some tests and a diet change and now I’m on to lymph nodes. I have two tiny lumps in my cheek that I found last September. They haven’t changed or grown. I mentioned them to my dentist and she wasn’t worried but did suggest I see an ENT for a second opinion. Surprisingly, I didn’t call one since I’m a busy mom of two little ones and just didn’t have much of a chance. Well, about 3 weeks ago, I was after those two lumps and then I convinced myself that a lump on my neck I’ve had for many years was also harder, bigger, sore... so therefore I must have lymphoma.
I’ve been trying very hard to search it on here and I always feel reassurance after I go through some posts and reassuring words given to others. I did go to the doctor about 2 weeks ago but she said she didn’t feel anything and it wasn’t worth it to give me an antibiotic and risk a possible yeast infection. She did feel the two small lumps in my cheek and said they don’t feel concerning but after my surgery (for an umbilical hernia last week) to see an oral surgeon for a second opinion. Ugh.
Anyway, I have the whole left side of my neck sore now and under my jaw. I even have a tiny node that popped out under my earlobe that actually felt like a pimple at first but isn’t. I am 100% sure it’s a node. I did have a sore pimple on the back of my ear for a few days so I’m trying to tell myself that is why that one popped but since it’s the same side I’ve been worried about, I have myself a mess.
I’m totally convinced I have lymphoma and I’m going to die and leave my babies behind 😭😭😭 I cant take this anymore! It feels like it’s always something and I’m ALWAYS so sure of it too! Every. Single. Time.
Any reassurance or kind words are appreciated. Thank you for reading.
I’ve been trying very hard to search it on here and I always feel reassurance after I go through some posts and reassuring words given to others. I did go to the doctor about 2 weeks ago but she said she didn’t feel anything and it wasn’t worth it to give me an antibiotic and risk a possible yeast infection. She did feel the two small lumps in my cheek and said they don’t feel concerning but after my surgery (for an umbilical hernia last week) to see an oral surgeon for a second opinion. Ugh.
Anyway, I have the whole left side of my neck sore now and under my jaw. I even have a tiny node that popped out under my earlobe that actually felt like a pimple at first but isn’t. I am 100% sure it’s a node. I did have a sore pimple on the back of my ear for a few days so I’m trying to tell myself that is why that one popped but since it’s the same side I’ve been worried about, I have myself a mess.
I’m totally convinced I have lymphoma and I’m going to die and leave my babies behind 😭😭😭 I cant take this anymore! It feels like it’s always something and I’m ALWAYS so sure of it too! Every. Single. Time.
Any reassurance or kind words are appreciated. Thank you for reading.