percythetrain
06-09-18, 15:58
Hi all, I'm close to going insane here. I'm surprisingly calm given the situation, but I think that's just because I'm so scared I can't even freak out outwardly. I'm like petrified. This is actually not a HA post, I do have the disease. It's because my child had it and I was exposed.
I wasn't super scared at first but then I made the mistake of reading a bit on google (because I wanted to help my child get relief even though she was OK) and I accidentally read the bit about the adults... yeah. It was downhill from there. Just horrible scenarios. I don't even wanna remember. It's like when I looked up muscle twitches and the first result was you-know-what.
I ended up getting it and luckily I saw a doctor who told me that it wasn't that big a deal and not to read google anymore, my mom's friend who's a pharmacist said pretty much the same thing: not to worry if I'm not immunocompromised. I don't have much of a fever, so far it peaked at 98.6, all I have is the itchy spots and a sore throat. But I am still freaking out.
I haven't taken an antiviral because the doctor who saw me first said he didn't like them because of their possible side effect profile and he doesn't give them to healthy young people. The pharmacist was kind of in the same page, so I started to make peace with my decision not to take it but then... I saw a different doctor yesterday just as a precaution and they had a different take. They said I should probably take it and was very surprised by the other doctor's approach, which made me feel petrified again. She said I could still take it. The thing is I did read the possible consequences of taking the drug and there were a couple of very scary blood syndromes that it could cause and I have a bit of a phobia when it comes to medication side-effects, even without anyone warning me about them, so I'm basically back in square one: petrified to take the drug and to not take the drug.
I'm trying to look at the bright side. I could have something worse. The fact that I don't even have a fever must mean I'm not in such bad shape. I do itch a lot and look awful but that's supposed to be normal. I would really appreaciate it if someone could share a story that isn't scary. It still kind of feels like I'm living a nightmare of sorts, a HA nightmare :(
Hugs to all
I wasn't super scared at first but then I made the mistake of reading a bit on google (because I wanted to help my child get relief even though she was OK) and I accidentally read the bit about the adults... yeah. It was downhill from there. Just horrible scenarios. I don't even wanna remember. It's like when I looked up muscle twitches and the first result was you-know-what.
I ended up getting it and luckily I saw a doctor who told me that it wasn't that big a deal and not to read google anymore, my mom's friend who's a pharmacist said pretty much the same thing: not to worry if I'm not immunocompromised. I don't have much of a fever, so far it peaked at 98.6, all I have is the itchy spots and a sore throat. But I am still freaking out.
I haven't taken an antiviral because the doctor who saw me first said he didn't like them because of their possible side effect profile and he doesn't give them to healthy young people. The pharmacist was kind of in the same page, so I started to make peace with my decision not to take it but then... I saw a different doctor yesterday just as a precaution and they had a different take. They said I should probably take it and was very surprised by the other doctor's approach, which made me feel petrified again. She said I could still take it. The thing is I did read the possible consequences of taking the drug and there were a couple of very scary blood syndromes that it could cause and I have a bit of a phobia when it comes to medication side-effects, even without anyone warning me about them, so I'm basically back in square one: petrified to take the drug and to not take the drug.
I'm trying to look at the bright side. I could have something worse. The fact that I don't even have a fever must mean I'm not in such bad shape. I do itch a lot and look awful but that's supposed to be normal. I would really appreaciate it if someone could share a story that isn't scary. It still kind of feels like I'm living a nightmare of sorts, a HA nightmare :(
Hugs to all