Seraphexa
16-09-18, 19:34
Hello everyone,
So earlier, I did something ridiculously stupid - I opened up a mushy can of beans, they wouldn't come out, so I turned the can on its head in the saucepan, and used a wooden spoon vertically to whack the beans out, denting the tin as I was hitting is so hard, then before I realised I was being an idiot, my smashy spoon device slipped and instead I smashed my knuckle full force into the tin, resulting in a collection of terrible swear words and tears collecting into my eyes (it pretty much took my breath away), my boyfriend saw it happen, and basically laughed at me afterwards.
Anyway, if that wasn't silly enough, I then proceeded to ask my mum and dad if the hospital (a lil minor injury unit, not a&e, don't worry I'm not one of those people) was open and they laughed and said I was stupid, at this point I felt like a complete tit and proceeded to demand to my boyfriend to agree (over message) that my mum was being awful to me, and he said stop being hysterical. So at that point I was crying because I felt so stupid and still do.
In other news, my finger feels stiff and there's a band of swelling around the knuckle, I can move it but get a sharp pain afterwards, it kinda feels like the whole knuckle's not there? Idk its weird. But yeah, it doesn't feel good, I took some paracetamol for it. Struggling to hold my computer mouse and straighten my finger.
So yeah, what do I do, do I brave the social anxiety tomorrow morning (and autism) and go to the hospital on my own, possibly looking like a fool in front of several nurses because it probably isn't even hurt, or do I just wait it out and look like I'm putting some sort of "ouchie" act on in front of my family (which I can assure is no act, the tears are real).
God, I'm stupid. So stupid.
So earlier, I did something ridiculously stupid - I opened up a mushy can of beans, they wouldn't come out, so I turned the can on its head in the saucepan, and used a wooden spoon vertically to whack the beans out, denting the tin as I was hitting is so hard, then before I realised I was being an idiot, my smashy spoon device slipped and instead I smashed my knuckle full force into the tin, resulting in a collection of terrible swear words and tears collecting into my eyes (it pretty much took my breath away), my boyfriend saw it happen, and basically laughed at me afterwards.
Anyway, if that wasn't silly enough, I then proceeded to ask my mum and dad if the hospital (a lil minor injury unit, not a&e, don't worry I'm not one of those people) was open and they laughed and said I was stupid, at this point I felt like a complete tit and proceeded to demand to my boyfriend to agree (over message) that my mum was being awful to me, and he said stop being hysterical. So at that point I was crying because I felt so stupid and still do.
In other news, my finger feels stiff and there's a band of swelling around the knuckle, I can move it but get a sharp pain afterwards, it kinda feels like the whole knuckle's not there? Idk its weird. But yeah, it doesn't feel good, I took some paracetamol for it. Struggling to hold my computer mouse and straighten my finger.
So yeah, what do I do, do I brave the social anxiety tomorrow morning (and autism) and go to the hospital on my own, possibly looking like a fool in front of several nurses because it probably isn't even hurt, or do I just wait it out and look like I'm putting some sort of "ouchie" act on in front of my family (which I can assure is no act, the tears are real).
God, I'm stupid. So stupid.