View Full Version : Just trying to sleep. Someone please. I'm begging
Someone help me. Please. I'm. Desperate. I'm litteraly crying my eyes out right now. I feel desperate. (I'm in therapy and felt like I was going well but seems not).
I've had a number of worries etc but the one that keeping me litteraly awake all night. Is the heart. Everytime I close my eyes something just feels strange. I'm like to scared to go to sleep. Everything feels off. My chest hurts, I've got so much acid builing up. Jusy so much. I had blood tests for the heart and one like EGC way back in February. I'm trying to use that but I feel so scared. I don't want to die.
I know I'm. Trying dramaict but please. Can someone help? I've tried flaking to my therapist about this and she's given me so method's to use. Idk if I'm leaving stuff out or if this is very strange sounding. I'm at my wits end. I know no one a doctor here hut I'm desperate please. I just want to sleep. This has been going on my. Months.
Well clearly I made it through the night. I know it's dramaict and over the top to post like that. It's just it feels so real and every night is a struggle like that. It's becoming increasingly difficult as it's been like this for over a year.
I've talked to my therapist and doctor about it. They both shrug it off. So I know in reason. It's probably just on my end but at the time it seems so real.
Hello Sarah,
Glad you made it through the night but this sounds awful, thoughts with you when it comes to this Anxiety. Have you tried any methods light listening to Podcasts (I find this helps me go to sleep) or music? Also, have you been tested for acid reflux?
Hello Sarah,
Glad you made it through the night but this sounds awful, thoughts with you when it comes to this Anxiety. Have you tried any methods light listening to Podcasts (I find this helps me go to sleep) or music? Also, have you been tested for acid reflux?
Thank you so much for taking the time to reply. I went to the gym today and got a good work-out in (without over-doing it). So I suppose I couldn't do that with something serious wrong! It's just sleep is such a issue for me and while other things get easier every night is a scary battle for me.
I've tried podcasts a few times! I was tested! I was tablets for it for awhile and it mainly clear ed up now though.
I'm struggling extra hard with this, last night was really difficult. I'm having a lot of chest pain, I'm trying to put it down to a new machine I'm using at the gym and some acid reflex issues.
I'm just worried, I know I should get on with it but it's hard. Fearing sleep and putting it off all the time. When I do try there a strange feeling in my chest and my heart rate goes crazy or feels so slow like it might stop. I'm sorry for complaining so much.
Hi Sarah,
I struggled with sleeping for a very long time, and I know how awful it feels. The thing I found that helped me the most is a small speaker called a pillow talk. I think you can grab one on Amazon. You can plug it in to your phone for example, and it sits underneath your pillow at night. Then listen to something that will distract you like Audio books or podcasts. It always helps calms me down which then helps push me off to sleep.
Hi Sarah,
I struggled with sleeping for a very long time, and I know how awful it feels. The thing I found that helped me the most is a small speaker called a pillow talk. I think you can grab one on Amazon. You can plug it in to your phone for example, and it sits underneath your pillow at night. Then listen to something that will distract you like Audio books or podcasts. It always helps calms me down which then helps push me off to sleep.
Thank you so much for taking the time to reply! This actually such a good idea! Thank you so much for the suggestion. I'll defo look into this! I'm sorry that you've experienced this also! It's just awful. I hope you're doing better :hugs:
I'm struggling with anxiety about my heart again. It feels like even if I just get off the couch or stand up my heart starts to pound. I keep feeling like it's skipping a beat. My chest gets this fully feeling. I'm just very, very overwhelmed by everything. Sorry for complaining, I know people have it worse. I just feel so lost and scared again.
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Sorry to spam this. I'm just really overwhelmed at the moment. So basically: I started worrying about my heart last year when I started getting chest pain and feeling my heart beat super fast. My bpm was actually really high (tested by doctor). She said this was a mixture of disagreement with birth control and acid relax. So it was a worry on and off for awhile.
In February I went to my GP finally feeling more on my feet but still was getting harsh chest pains and heart worries. She said they do a ecg at my doctors office as they have a machine there. She didn't seem worried and I didn't actually when I went in for the test the next day. The nurse did the test, my own GP didn't work that day so it was the other gp on shift. She took one look at my results and said you have to go to A&E right now. She gave me no reason why, I was so scared. I thought I was going to die. I was only 21 (22 now).
I went to the A&E, they did two more ECG's, a chest x-ray, and some type of bloods. They said they couldn't see anything wrong and sent me home without any reason. I've spoken to my own GP since, she's listen to my heart a few times and said it all sounds fine.
So, my question is. Am I over thinking all of this? Sorry for the rant, I'm just having a hard time and I really don't want to google because that's what gave me so many panic attacks before.
I try telling myself things like I go to the gym, I would have dropped by now. I wouldn't have this on-going issues. I'm also 22 and no family history. When I went to the urgent care a few weeks back for a infection and got tablets. He did my blood pressure and said it was perfect. I know that doesn't matter always. I'm just at a lost.
I want to get better fully, I also don't want to go running back to the doctor's. Like what more can she do? Is it all in my head? I know no one can tell me everything this is mainly a rate. Like even as I typed this my chest felt funny and hurt alot. I'm meant to be going on a once in a lifetime trip on Monday. I just feel lost. Sorry, I think the lack of good sleep is making me more emotional as well.
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I'm aware that I'm just falling deeper and deeper into some type of panic right now. Yet everything seems so much to me. Like now I'm worried about my heart going to slow and feeling faint. Like it's just going to stop.
Tomorrow I'll probably wake up and be like lol made it through the night after all. Then the next day it will all start again. II'm feeling very desperate right now. Any words are welcome.
So like I said... I made it through another night lol. Today I've been very on edge again. Worrying about the night to come :(
I’m sure you know that you’re making night time worse by panicking about it. Do you have a bedtime routine to relax and de stress before bed?
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ankietyjoe
20-09-18, 21:01
When my reflux gets bad my number one symptom is stabbing, searing pain at the centre and left of my chest. It lasts for days.
Also, anxiety will give you rapid heart beats, all the time. It's not dangerous and you don't need to fear it. My heart rate would spike at anything from 120-180bpm during my worst bouts of anxiety.
Your heart rate can be fast with reflux too as it irritates your vagus nerve. Mine would often go to 80-100bpm after a big evening meal and stay there for several hours.
Try using a good quality apple cider vinegar a couple of times a day, which almost completely cured my reflux. You still have to watch what you eat, but it's very effective. I use about a tablespoon diluted in a glass of water.
I’m sure you know that you’re making night time worse by panicking about it. Do you have a bedtime routine to relax and de stress before bed?
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Yeah! Like my therapist has said, when I had my first real panic attack so that's probably why I fear night so much. Also that whole thing worrying about there being less help! I try to do a bed-time routine! Like do my skin care and all the before heading to bed! It was really helpful for awhile but it seems to be failing me now! Thank you so much for the reply, I know I'm being very dramatic in my post but it's like I try to vent them out.
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When my reflux gets bad my number one symptom is stabbing, searing pain at the centre and left of my chest. It lasts for days.
Also, anxiety will give you rapid heart beats, all the time. It's not dangerous and you don't need to fear it. My heart rate would spike at anything from 120-180bpm during my worst bouts of anxiety.
Your heart rate can be fast with reflux too as it irritates your vagus nerve. Mine would often go to 80-100bpm after a big evening meal and stay there for several hours.
Try using a good quality apple cider vinegar a couple of times a day, which almost completely cured my reflux. You still have to watch what you eat, but it's very effective. I use about a tablespoon diluted in a glass of water.
Thank you so much for the reply! Also all of that information! It means a lot! I never heard about the apple cider before! I'll defo have to try it out and soon! I hope you're doing better now! It's a lot to handle
I know I'm being dramatic in my posts. Like just right now I went upstairs to get something for my Mam and when I came down and even now I feel kinda light headed and my chest feels strange. Like I keep trying to tell myself it's all fine. It's probably just my anxiety leading to it. Like if I'm not focused on the strange fast beating of the heart, I'm scared about it feeling slow like it's just about to stop.
It's all overwhelming, I try to remind myself of the tests back in February but in my mind it keeps going "It could have changed" Or "You're wrong, they were wrong and you're about to drop." Like I know the easy thing to do is go to the GP but I'm scared that it's nothing and I'll fall back into that pattern again of needing to ask about everything. I'm hoping this is just a blip. Like I've been going to the gym and surely that would help or if there was something wrong I'd drop there or something. Sorry for being so dramatic.
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Like also I try not to use those heart measurement things on machines in the gym, I know it would only cause me to freak out. I grabbed onto the treadmill handles one day without realzing and it was a slow cool down walk and my heart rate was like 145. I freaked out. My heart tends to rest about 100/102. My GP knows this I think, I used to have a phone app on my phone that could tell you that...god rid of it anyway!
Some nights when I freak about my heart fast or slow it always tends to be around 100/102 bpm. I'm just overwhelmed tbh. Like I said I'm travailing on Monday ( leaving the country) and I know be able to see my gp before then :(
Sorry for updating this again...It's just I feel so lost and strange. I feel my heart thudding yet when I reached up to touch and feel my pulse (bad idea I know). It felt so weak and faith. I feel so breathless and I keep burping??? It just seems wrong. I know I'm probably over reacting but I feel so scared in this moment. I also have this strange pain in the area of my leg just below my right knee (So thinking of a clot of course- stupid I know). So my thoughts are going wild. Sorry I have a lot of personal drama at the moment so it's probably adding to this. Sorry to talk all of your ears off.
Today was mostly okay!!! Even though yesterday i got some great but sad news. My boyfriend got a amazing offer at a university back in his home country. I'm so proud of him because it's a chance he'd never get here of course I'll miss him and who knows how things will work out. But of course I support him! I'm one who always believes you can't put your chances down for another person.
Physical same old same old. Racing heart at times, feeling rather breathless today. Also get like this strange headrush when I stand up after sitting. Sorry for ranting. Just a bit extra tender today.
I'm finding it a little difficult to get deep breaths today, I'm sure it's propbaly just me overthinking it or something! Having A some of the same issues as strange chest feeling or heart heat feeling strange. Like trying not to panic to much as I'm flying tomorrow. Like I've been worrying about it so long now surely something have happened by now... I try telling myself anyway!
Like someone told me already the chances with my age and the test I had a few months back. The issues are likely no sinters. Yet there's always that annoying voice at the back of your head.
Well I hope it's all good as I signed up to do my first half marathon today! It's something I've wanted to do for years! I'll be running for a Ms charity here in Ireland
So... I made this post nearly ten days ago. I'm sure if there was something serious with my heart or something I would have dropped by now!! The shortness of breath, the way it beats and all that stuff I've said still still worries me. But like someone said to me I was tested in February and I'm 22. So trying to just let it go and get on with it!
The sleep isnt great still get that strange jerk and gasp nearly every night but my boyfriend said that's propbaly I'm like expecting it to happen you know??
Sorry for rambling so much!
Yes, your bf is probably right. I've noticed when I've gone through a couple of anxious lack of sleep nights that it feels like I almost will myself to a little more based on "waiting" for it to happen again.
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Kingdawson
25-09-18, 06:43
So... I made this post nearly ten days ago. I'm sure if there was something serious with my heart or something I would have dropped by now!! The shortness of breath, the way it beats and all that stuff I've said still still worries me. But like someone said to me I was tested in February and I'm 22. So trying to just let it go and get on with it!
The sleep isnt great still get that strange jerk and gasp nearly every night but my boyfriend said that's propbaly I'm like expecting it to happen you know??
Sorry for rambling so much!
Yep i get hypnic jerks quite regularly and they're anxiety related . When i dont think about them they dont happen but when I'm expecting them....Well yeh you get the point. A slight twitch/jerk before sleep is totally normal anyway and isn't even anxiety related (but anxiety for sure makes them worse). You're fine.
I too suffer reflux with awful chest pains plus gnawing stomach pains that run under my ribs from one side to the other. I’m having a particularly bad spell at the moment and I worry so much it’s my heart. I’ve had ecgs, echo and chest X-ray which were all fine but nothing reassures me, especially when it’s bad like at the moment. When I’m sitting or lying I feel what I think is my heart beat or some kind of vibrating in my chest area, it scares the hell out of me. I’m struggling so much at the moment, bed time is awful as when I’m lying down and it’s all quiet I can feel everything 😞 I hope we both get some relief from this soon
Thank you so much to everyone who replied to this!! I was away for a few days and I'm only getting the chance to see this now. @jray23 and @Kingdawson I'm sorry you've both had to experience this! I hope you're both doing well now and thank you so much for replying and sharing insight!
@emls78 I'm so sorry you're having such a hard time with this. I hope you find some comfort soon ❤️❤️ thank you for replying
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