CeeBeeby
19-09-18, 21:38
Hello everybody just wanted to say hi.
I'm Chris, I've had a heart condition 15 years, I live in almost complete solitude, I spend most of my time at the beach when I go out because the coast is always a good companion and I'm absolutely terrible at making friends. I have no friends. And the crazy thing is, I'm actually kind of ok with it all.
I've accepted that I'm destined to be one of life's natural losers, without any bad feelings. I can't work because I'm ill, likewise I'm probably ill because I can't work. I lost custody of my daughter due to alcoholism, 3 years later my amazing partner left me, I then lost my house and everybody I knew. I seem to be good at losing and being a loser so I've just learnt to accept it. I used to use self-harm as a coping mechanism along with alcohol, but not so much these days. Another thing I have come to terms with is solitude. Y'know, you do something for so long you'll get used to it?? That's what happened here. I have genuinely considered starting an online losers Club what people like myself who are socially awkward, cut off and cut out of society in general, or who just feel like they just have no place in society.
Anyway that's my story, of course there's a lot more to it than that but I don't want to overlord you all with the details. I'm very frank and open so I hope to speak to you all soon.
I'm Chris, I've had a heart condition 15 years, I live in almost complete solitude, I spend most of my time at the beach when I go out because the coast is always a good companion and I'm absolutely terrible at making friends. I have no friends. And the crazy thing is, I'm actually kind of ok with it all.
I've accepted that I'm destined to be one of life's natural losers, without any bad feelings. I can't work because I'm ill, likewise I'm probably ill because I can't work. I lost custody of my daughter due to alcoholism, 3 years later my amazing partner left me, I then lost my house and everybody I knew. I seem to be good at losing and being a loser so I've just learnt to accept it. I used to use self-harm as a coping mechanism along with alcohol, but not so much these days. Another thing I have come to terms with is solitude. Y'know, you do something for so long you'll get used to it?? That's what happened here. I have genuinely considered starting an online losers Club what people like myself who are socially awkward, cut off and cut out of society in general, or who just feel like they just have no place in society.
Anyway that's my story, of course there's a lot more to it than that but I don't want to overlord you all with the details. I'm very frank and open so I hope to speak to you all soon.