Limeslime
20-09-18, 12:18
I’m sitting in soft play watching my three year old son playing, whilst trying to keep my mind off the symptoms that my health anxiety is grasping onto this week!
I honestly hate feeling this way. I’ve had a lovely few days of looking at wedding venues and bridesmaid dresses, feeling on top of the world!
But then the demon that is HA decides to say “hey! You won’t be alive in 2020 to have your dream wedding because you clearly have cancer. So why bother planning!”
I found a lump in my breast yesterday. But then again, it’s about the 4th lump this year that I’m worried about. They’ve always gone away. I think I probably have fibrocystic breasts...especially given that my period is due in 4 days. My brain knows that. But my “demon” says it’s breast cancer. And he is stronger!
I just want my life back. This is so tiring!
I honestly hate feeling this way. I’ve had a lovely few days of looking at wedding venues and bridesmaid dresses, feeling on top of the world!
But then the demon that is HA decides to say “hey! You won’t be alive in 2020 to have your dream wedding because you clearly have cancer. So why bother planning!”
I found a lump in my breast yesterday. But then again, it’s about the 4th lump this year that I’m worried about. They’ve always gone away. I think I probably have fibrocystic breasts...especially given that my period is due in 4 days. My brain knows that. But my “demon” says it’s breast cancer. And he is stronger!
I just want my life back. This is so tiring!