doxiemama
23-09-18, 17:38
Hi all,
I'm new to the forum, I'm still trying to figure, if this is the place for me! I love to read the post, and know that I am not alone in struggling with HA, but, no one person ever wants to hear me whine, about what I THINK, I might have! Everyday is a struggle for me! Constant worry! :weep:
I know I have health anxiety, big time! I worry for me, for my family, and even strangers. I worry all day long. All with a smile on my face. If you didn't know me, you would never know! The symptoms get me every time. Just when I think I am doing well......BAM something happens, whether it be my heart skipping a beat (which I swear it stops!) or my latest DIZZY, of course at work! I just want to go home and climb in bed, and bury my head in the sand! Then.... the funk that your in after the symptom! (the what if's) Omg, is it going to happen again? What if I am driving down the road, what if it happens again, while i'm at work, what if I really am dying? oh that vicious, vicious cycle, that no one person can relate to, unless your living it!!!!
I have a hard time even getting in my car, that's probably one of the hardest things for me to do, is pull away from my house, my comfort zone, my dogs, my family!!!! But.....today I got in that car! I drove to my husbands job, and I felt like :wacko: but I made it, I made it there and back! This gave me more hope for tomorrow morning, when its time to go to work! There was a song on the radio by Jason Mraz - The Remedy ( I wont worry my life away) . I don't even know what the song is about, but I clearly heard the words, I wont worry my life away! It hits home. As to I do not want to worry all day, everyday. I'm sure I still will, as a matter of fact I know I will, I seem to be stuck in a pattern I can't get out of. BUT I will give myself credit, and I will keep fighting the fight, and I will try not to worry! :)
Please give yourself credit for something today, don't beat yourself up for wondering, or worrying. I am sure you did something great today :hugs: and I am sure you are a great person, just stuck in the cycle like me!
hugs to all! Mckenzie
I'm new to the forum, I'm still trying to figure, if this is the place for me! I love to read the post, and know that I am not alone in struggling with HA, but, no one person ever wants to hear me whine, about what I THINK, I might have! Everyday is a struggle for me! Constant worry! :weep:
I know I have health anxiety, big time! I worry for me, for my family, and even strangers. I worry all day long. All with a smile on my face. If you didn't know me, you would never know! The symptoms get me every time. Just when I think I am doing well......BAM something happens, whether it be my heart skipping a beat (which I swear it stops!) or my latest DIZZY, of course at work! I just want to go home and climb in bed, and bury my head in the sand! Then.... the funk that your in after the symptom! (the what if's) Omg, is it going to happen again? What if I am driving down the road, what if it happens again, while i'm at work, what if I really am dying? oh that vicious, vicious cycle, that no one person can relate to, unless your living it!!!!
I have a hard time even getting in my car, that's probably one of the hardest things for me to do, is pull away from my house, my comfort zone, my dogs, my family!!!! But.....today I got in that car! I drove to my husbands job, and I felt like :wacko: but I made it, I made it there and back! This gave me more hope for tomorrow morning, when its time to go to work! There was a song on the radio by Jason Mraz - The Remedy ( I wont worry my life away) . I don't even know what the song is about, but I clearly heard the words, I wont worry my life away! It hits home. As to I do not want to worry all day, everyday. I'm sure I still will, as a matter of fact I know I will, I seem to be stuck in a pattern I can't get out of. BUT I will give myself credit, and I will keep fighting the fight, and I will try not to worry! :)
Please give yourself credit for something today, don't beat yourself up for wondering, or worrying. I am sure you did something great today :hugs: and I am sure you are a great person, just stuck in the cycle like me!
hugs to all! Mckenzie