ScaredAsHeck
27-09-18, 21:40
Is anyone else sick of their anxiety? Seriously, I’m sick of thinking there’s something with with me. I’m sick of worrying everyday. I want to go outside and enjoy my life without a care in the world. Literally every single day I think there’s something wrong with me and I act so restricted and am scared to go out.
My anxiety has gotten to the point where now I think I’m beginning to develop a fear of driving. Now I’m not driving as far as I used to and it’s pissing me off. I feel I’m always on fight or flight for no reason, worrying when the next attack will happen. Last night I had 4-5 hours of sleep and I’m thinking what if My heart is damaged, yada yada, see how ridiculous I’m thinking?. This morning I was researching magnesium deficiency like mad and convinced myself again that I had one. So I drove to buy some supps but turned back home halfway there because I got anxious all of a sudden. I feel trapped but I don’t want to be.
I don’t know happened to me. It’s like my life went from chill and great to chaos. I’m mad because I missed out on so much these past 2 and a half months because of my anxiety. I’m not enjoying the things I used to because I’m always wondering when my heart will act up or what new thing I’ll self diagnose myself with. Tried therapists but I’m tired of them. I’m tired of going to the ER and urgent care. I’m tired of going to see a doctor when I have a skipped beat or feel funny. I just want to snap my fingers and have all this anxiety and worry vanish.
Btw I’m not depressed nor have I ever had self harming thoughts. I’m just frustrated. Consciously I know my Anxiety is silly and irrational yet why can’t I fully convince my subconscious? Im ready for a fight to end this anxiety. I want my old self back.
My anxiety has gotten to the point where now I think I’m beginning to develop a fear of driving. Now I’m not driving as far as I used to and it’s pissing me off. I feel I’m always on fight or flight for no reason, worrying when the next attack will happen. Last night I had 4-5 hours of sleep and I’m thinking what if My heart is damaged, yada yada, see how ridiculous I’m thinking?. This morning I was researching magnesium deficiency like mad and convinced myself again that I had one. So I drove to buy some supps but turned back home halfway there because I got anxious all of a sudden. I feel trapped but I don’t want to be.
I don’t know happened to me. It’s like my life went from chill and great to chaos. I’m mad because I missed out on so much these past 2 and a half months because of my anxiety. I’m not enjoying the things I used to because I’m always wondering when my heart will act up or what new thing I’ll self diagnose myself with. Tried therapists but I’m tired of them. I’m tired of going to the ER and urgent care. I’m tired of going to see a doctor when I have a skipped beat or feel funny. I just want to snap my fingers and have all this anxiety and worry vanish.
Btw I’m not depressed nor have I ever had self harming thoughts. I’m just frustrated. Consciously I know my Anxiety is silly and irrational yet why can’t I fully convince my subconscious? Im ready for a fight to end this anxiety. I want my old self back.