dancerja77
05-10-18, 07:53
I had a boyfriend in college who I think was abusive.
This person was so controlling over me to the point that at WORK I was not allowed to speak to males. If I saw a male friend in public I wasn't allowed to speak to them. I am a very friendly, bubbly out going person and I had many guy friends. I was forced to delete them from my physical phone and my life. I worked with an ex at the time and this was the straw that broke the camels back. I had to make lists of people that I spoke to and what I said to them. I made the mistake of speaking to that ex and I have never been screamed at or yelled at the way I was that night. He wouldn't speak to me for a week. I lost 10 pounds, ever since then the obsessions won't stop. I obsess about everything, good or bad. I for around a year, had to "confess" my sins or things I felt guilty about. I had such a hard time getting over that, but I feel like that trauma started it all.
Could this be?
Was this abuse?
Does it sound like OCD?
I still experience guilt and obsessions.
This person was so controlling over me to the point that at WORK I was not allowed to speak to males. If I saw a male friend in public I wasn't allowed to speak to them. I am a very friendly, bubbly out going person and I had many guy friends. I was forced to delete them from my physical phone and my life. I worked with an ex at the time and this was the straw that broke the camels back. I had to make lists of people that I spoke to and what I said to them. I made the mistake of speaking to that ex and I have never been screamed at or yelled at the way I was that night. He wouldn't speak to me for a week. I lost 10 pounds, ever since then the obsessions won't stop. I obsess about everything, good or bad. I for around a year, had to "confess" my sins or things I felt guilty about. I had such a hard time getting over that, but I feel like that trauma started it all.
Could this be?
Was this abuse?
Does it sound like OCD?
I still experience guilt and obsessions.