anyone get this?

[rosepetal]

It's for me a combination of social anxiety and PTSD. But it manifests as panic attacks.

It started at work this morning, a man came to fix someone's computer, there were already 2 people in the office who aren't normally there, and the IT men were standing up and near my desk. I just wanted to hide.

I should have taken a propranolol or some rescue remedy, but I didn't. :weep:

Then I had to do my food shopping, and had to run around flinching from everyone and trying desperately to escape. I felt so trapped and unsafe.

Everyone was staring at me and I just wanted to be invisible but have my space. :weep:

I'm home now, and have taken some rescue remedy.

I still feel a bit shaken up.

Does anyone else get anything like this? What helps you?

I feel so ashamed. I hate feeling like this. But I feel I have to protect myself. And I feel so alone.

[50cent84]

yes i always feel like that to rosepetal. its so stressfull. im agraphobic and happens in busy places.(open spaces to in my case).

one thing i do know is that its all in your mind and its like an automatic thing to the mind. we need to un learn it, im still trying to figure out how, iv seen 2 specialist and sick of wasting money. hope this helps take care

[rosepetal]

Thanks for replying.

I feel so... alone.

This has been 'learnt' through all my life. I don't think it will ever fully go away.

I just don't feel safe in the world or around people I don't know.

I know all those people I know were unknown once, but that doesn't seem to make it easier.

[Gabby]

Hi Petal

I get this too at times altho im lucky i can get about most of life ok. I find my brain racing, everything is really heightened and i can get a bit light headed.

I resort to the meds too I'm afriad - i know its not everyone's fave option but propranolol is my best friend.

if it happens when im out, i try to find somewhere quiet - a public loo ususally! - and just sit quietly for a few minutes. I close my eyes so Im back in my world and not everyone elses and take some deep breaths until I feel strong enough to face the people again and do what ever it is I need to get done.

Hope this helps. U really are not alone xxx

G x

[SammiB]

I also find that i feel very vunerable in social situations, like everyone scares me lol when we have leaving do's at work everyone crowded round and i felt very small. i just gritted my teeth and started to fidgit lol, propranalol is also my best friend, i find that just taking it reassures me as i know i will feel fine soon.

hope you find yourself some answers, your not alone

xxxxxx

[rosepetal]

Thank you. :)

I wish I have a portable loo to carry round sometimes, lol!