Kirree
22-08-07, 16:19
Hi, ive just joined this site, and from what ive already seen around the forum everyone seems to be really helpful :)
I am 18 and have suffered from having panic attacks most of my life, i always had separation anxiety whenever i went anywhere without my parents other than school as a child. I believe that i have agoraphobia, although originally i though i was just claustraphobic. I recently went on a 4 day summer school university preparation course at the uni i will be attending as of september. I was continously anxious and panicky during the 4 days there, especially during unsupervised social events (for some reason i still feel like a child and i need someone there to look after me incase something goes wrong, and people that i know my own age never quite seem to understand, also i dont trust them enough to feel safe away from home with them). Because of this, i went off my food and barely ate whilst i was there. The "student lifestyle" generally worries me, as i dont drink like the majority my age do, and i dont like partying without someone i trust there with me.
On the second night there, at about 2am in my temporary accomodation that had been organised by the university (i was staying with other people on the summer school) My other flat mates threw a party in the flat while i was dropping off to sleep. I immediately felt panicky (with all the drunken teenagers outside my door) and trapped in my room, unable to leave, it resulted in a lengthy panic attack and an hour long phone call to my boyfriend who was attempting to calm me down.
The whole thing completely knocked my confidence about moving away from home and away from my parents (although it is only a 40 minute train journey back into manchester, it feels far too far away when im anxious and trying my hardest not to escape back home in the early hours of the morning).
I dont want my panic attacks to get the better of me, and prevent me from going to the university that i fell in love with, but i worry that i wont be able to stick it out. Has anyone been through a similar thing successfully? or can offer any advice on how to cope in these situations.
I am 18 and have suffered from having panic attacks most of my life, i always had separation anxiety whenever i went anywhere without my parents other than school as a child. I believe that i have agoraphobia, although originally i though i was just claustraphobic. I recently went on a 4 day summer school university preparation course at the uni i will be attending as of september. I was continously anxious and panicky during the 4 days there, especially during unsupervised social events (for some reason i still feel like a child and i need someone there to look after me incase something goes wrong, and people that i know my own age never quite seem to understand, also i dont trust them enough to feel safe away from home with them). Because of this, i went off my food and barely ate whilst i was there. The "student lifestyle" generally worries me, as i dont drink like the majority my age do, and i dont like partying without someone i trust there with me.
On the second night there, at about 2am in my temporary accomodation that had been organised by the university (i was staying with other people on the summer school) My other flat mates threw a party in the flat while i was dropping off to sleep. I immediately felt panicky (with all the drunken teenagers outside my door) and trapped in my room, unable to leave, it resulted in a lengthy panic attack and an hour long phone call to my boyfriend who was attempting to calm me down.
The whole thing completely knocked my confidence about moving away from home and away from my parents (although it is only a 40 minute train journey back into manchester, it feels far too far away when im anxious and trying my hardest not to escape back home in the early hours of the morning).
I dont want my panic attacks to get the better of me, and prevent me from going to the university that i fell in love with, but i worry that i wont be able to stick it out. Has anyone been through a similar thing successfully? or can offer any advice on how to cope in these situations.